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|chuckitatthewall (profile) wrote, |
on 7-18-2005 at 5:29pm
|seems as though people are back to their old ways again. summer was going so well until i realized it. now i gotta go face reality which i was doing a marvelous job of avoiding. that sucks really bad. so i will go back to school in 5 1/2 weeks and face the shittiness of it all and pray the time goes by swiftly cause i think i will die if it doesnt. honestly there is a world out there that i'll never fucking understand and whats the point cause i get glimpses of that shittiness and realize how truly stupid and childish it is. i dont need to be apart of that so hopefully i'll be able to ignore it somewhat well and wait until i'm 18 and get out of the shithole called san jose california. yea that will be nice.
other things: moms an ass. i knew that already but she is more of an ass now because is keeping me from a relationship with my sister. next summer monica said that she and james will be moving up to eldorado hills so i can go spend the summer with her and get a job and stuff. i think thats a good idea. i'm trying get out of san jose as much as i can and that will be a good opportunity to experience another way of living and make some new friends and have fun and not be in front of a computer or t.v for most of the summer. next year seems so far off. i hope i can make it that long. i have this feeling that my parents are going to get on me this winter and because no one will be there to defend me i'm going to have to stand up and take it like a man even though i am in fact a girl.
well i think thats all i have to say for now. i could probably go on for hours but i'll go write on it on paper. bye
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Dude I agree about the world thingy being stupid. There are a lot of dumb people out there. And once I think about it, part of the reason the world is so stupid is because the people in it are stupid. Of course there are really cool people too, but sometimes it's so hard to find them, and all the mean snotty stupid people are there instead. I don't even know whether I want to grow up. I mean, I used to think that all the stress, like school and things, was going to be over with once we're done, but once I really think about it, what about paying taxes and having kids and sending them to school, and getting a job and keeping that job? It's gonna suck.
Re:, 07-20-05 1:40am
Nice comment..you made me think of some things I hadn't before. LIke how things just repeat themselves over and over again. Now that I think about it like that it really sucks even more... Hmm..I wonder how we got to be humans and some spirits or whatever they're called turn into dogs,cats,mosquito hawks etc. Its odd isnt it? I think I'd rather be a dog sometimes but they're lives are pretty much the same thing over and over again also. Maybe if i was a service dog. Anyway, that sounds weird. I shouldnt talk about stuff like that.