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anachronism (profile) wrote,
on 12-27-2005 at 9:58am
I think I'm actually happy. Honestly.

Of course I'm gonna have my bad moments where I feel lonely, but being single right now is good.

Highschool relationships are usually bullshit anyway. Even if people say they aren't, they are. I only know of two couples that I think are actually good.

I like that I can do what I want. I can go to a party if I want to. I can hang out with guys. I can ask for a guys numbers if I think he's cool. I can call guys and talk. I can just do what I want without asking if it's ok and that feels so good.

I want to date at the age when it will be a mature, adult relationship and the goal will be marriage, not getting laid. It seems pointless to me to date when the goal isn't being together forever. Sometimes it's just a time kill for people. Or just so they won't be alone. Maybe they're in love with someone else, so they trick themselves into thinking the new person is great, which he may be.. but, you're still thinking about the other guy. Whatever it is...it's bullshit.

And I can say right now I have not had one mature relationship in my life. In one we fought too much about stupid shit that didn't matter at all. The other he quit on me because I "couldn't see him enough" the other one.. he had no back bone, another one.. well he was just a moron. Etc. But, everything was just weak and no one tried to fix a problem that was barely even a problem at all.

Now, don't get me wrong. I'm not bashing people who date in highschool. I'm just saying for me, it's not right, right now. And it shouldn't be the focus of my life. I can be happy without a meaningless guy by my side.

I can't believe I begged for him to stay. What the hell? Right now, I've never felt so good to get rid of someone so bad.
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neverending

12-27-05 11:07pm

hey stacy
I know we dont speak too much but I would like to tell you that I am very happy for .I glad you have come to conclusions you have . Smart desicion to remain single -not for everyone ;) but good for some. merry belated christmas


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anachronism

Re:, 12-28-05 10:53am

Thank you. And merry belated Christmas to you as well. :) *Hug

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twiggypuff

12-28-05 2:10am

I'm glad. I feel like most people aren't ready for relationships in highschool, they are all n00bie and most boys base it off from any type of sex. I'm happy, however, with my choice to date ^_^

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anachronism

Re:, 12-28-05 10:54am

Yeah, he's pretty cool. Haha.

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