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phil-himself

:: 2012 8 November :: 1.31pm

I'm gonna corner the unicorn grease market, tell you what

I don't care but...


phil-himself

:: 2012 4 November :: 12.42pm

Big challenges right now, but fire strengthens steel.

3 liars | I don't care but...


skife

:: 2012 3 November :: 9.24am

done with sprint, got a call yesterday saying i start at the tool n die place monday at 9am

I don't care but...


phil-himself

:: 2012 17 October :: 7.53pm

box wine and frozen pizza, vidya games. that's a good way to fucked up

6 liars | I don't care but...


phil-himself

:: 2012 12 October :: 10.35am

fix it

1 liar | I don't care but...


gillette

:: 2012 9 October :: 4.14pm

I feel like I'm losing my mind. I can't deal with real life. Why am I so weak? I have a bachelor's degree that I can't do anything with except go to grad school but that seems to overwhelming for me to even think about. Every time it crosses my mind that I need to apply, I quickly think of something else. It's like I'm trying to sabotage myself. Next month I have to start paying back all of my student loans and I have a job making $11/hour. I also am going to be getting less on my paychecks b/c I need to start paying for benefits. I just want to run away and not deal with anything. I had this magical life pictured in my head that I would go to college, go straight through to grad school, become a speech pathologist, have money and not struggle like my parents. It seems like that is too far out of my comfort zone and what I'm familiar with. I'm familiar with pain, no money and struggle. My mom struggles every day and cries to me b/c they can't afford fuel oil or the bills. I literally feel like I want to bash my head into a wall everyday b/c of how my life has turned out. And it's nobody's fault but my own. I hide from everything I should be doing and then sit here and cry b/c of how it is.

I'm literally afraid to check my cmich email b/c my two professors that said they would write letters of rec for me have probably been emailing me wondering if I died or something. Why am I afraid to do GOOD for myself?

6 liars | I don't care but...


phil-himself

:: 2012 3 October :: 5.18pm

The liquor is calling the shots bud.

I don't care but...


phil-himself

:: 2012 30 September :: 7.48pm

This is where I would write some self congratulatory bullshit. Oh wait, this isn't facebook!

8 liars | I don't care but...


skife

:: 2012 21 September :: 12.31am

I don't care but...


skife

:: 2012 19 September :: 2.45pm

sometimes i feel like i haven't found my place in life.

I don't care but...


skife

:: 2012 21 August :: 11.42pm

a few people are doing "in memory of andy" stickers....

My testament to my friend is buying a fucking camaro...

1 liar | I don't care but...


phil-himself

:: 2012 6 August :: 11.22am

Comfort kills dreams so we have to stay hungry, or perhaps stay greedy, to keep moving in that direction.

I don't care but...


skife

:: 2012 4 July :: 1.59am

sometimes i'm just so angry...

4 liars | I don't care but...


phil-himself

:: 2012 2 July :: 10.38am

So I've learned that when I'm suspicious about someone's motives I am usually correct.

4 liars | I don't care but...


skife

:: 2012 19 June :: 11.02pm

ugggh, i hate depression.

1 liar | I don't care but...

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