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2008 16 July :: 9.27am
:: Music: Cartel -- Wonderwall [Oasis cover]
Short day today = YAYsauce.
Work til 4.
Post office.
Oil change.
Sayche timeeee.
So much love for msh =] <4
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2008 15 July :: 10.19am
Slayer just jumped up on my lap, turned to face me, wrapped his paws around my neck and kissed my face.
It was the cutest thing ever. I love my kitty =]
Oh, and I'm feeling ridiculously sappy/cutesy today. It's rather exciting because I totally just stepped out of my comfort zone and did something that I haven't done in a good 5 years. =]] I just hope the mood lasts until I get home.
<3
Oh and btw, it's blue bra Tuesday. So go put one on with a white shirt over the top, and go do the Cha Cha Slide on the sidewalk with your best friends. =]
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2008 14 July :: 8.19am
It was a really great weekend.
I love you =]
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2008 11 July :: 7.19am
Sweet! 82 degrees tomorrow with a 60% chance of storms that could possibly be severe. I'm going to be SO excited to float down a river if storms hit. Nothin like being in a huge body of water with lightning raining from the sky =] I hope I don't get electrocuted!!
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/end sarcasm.
Today can lick some goat balls, imo =] 10 hour day for the LOSE, buttttt if storms hit like the sky looks like they will, it'll make for a relaxing and humble day which is always exciting. I'm going to blow my fucking manager out of the water at our meeting this morning because I've been stalking our campaign numbers. Not gonna lie, I pretty much love being right all the time being a show off =]
Anywayyyy. Work work work, lunch, work work, home, pack, shopping, food, Cedar Springs, Pj's mommmmmm, Wii? SLEEP. sleep sleep, rafting, storms, liquor, electrocution, home.
iiiiiiiilmshsfm! inef. aikwlyfwighfw =] KTHXBAI.
<3
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2008 10 July :: 11.09am
<33333333333333333
Don't go changing, to try and please me,
You never let me down before,
Don't imagine, you're too familiar,
And I don't see you anymore.
I would not leave you, in times of trouble,
We never could have come this far,
I took the good times, I'll take the bad times,
I'll take you just the way you are.
Don't go trying, some new fashion,
Don't change the colour of your hair,
You always have my, unspoken passion,
Although I might not seem to care.
I don't want clever, conversation,
I never want to work that hard,
I just want someone, that I can talk to,
I want you just the way you are.
I need to know that you will always be
The same old someone that I knew,
What will it take till you believe in me,
The way that I believe in you?
I said I love you, and that's forever,
And this I promise from the heart,
I couldn't love you, any better,
I love you just the way you are.
I don't want clever, conversation,
I never want to work that hard,
I just want someone, that I can talk to,
I want you just the way you are.
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2008 8 July :: 11.16am
Oh! I almost forgot =]
I'm FINALLY selling my rings and my necklace tomorrow. Hopefully I'll get enough money so that I can get a new video card and a power supply. My PC is pretty much jacked for gaming, and it's extremely frustrating that I can't play CoD =[
I should also be getting my half of the stimulus check on Thursday or Friday which means that Shawn will be paying the lawyer sometime this week which means that I'll FINALLY get divorce papers, so this can be fucking over. I'm also hoping I can just do court via phone because I don't want to drive 7 hours just to go to court for like a half hour. That's a waste of time and gas, and I'm not going to do it. I need to start preparing my case for requesting alimony too. Hopefully I'll get it too.. that will help me out tremendously with bills and such. I'm pretty excited for all of this to just be over. Then I can finally get my new drivers license, plates, switch the title of my car, and all that good stuff. And I'll be able to have my maiden name back which makes me even happier <3
K I'm done now. Yay for good mood, maybe? Andddd yay for storms again today!!! I'm actually visibly excited about these unlike yesterday.
Btw, Stephen King is WIN. And Pet Semetary is supposed to be his scariest novel =D I'm glad I finally got my bookssss <3333
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2008 8 July :: 9.59am
So this weekend we went swimming, and I randomly busted out with how I was really excited for Christmas which shocked myself probably more than it shocked the boys. I figured it was just some float away thought bubble that prematurely popped, but here I am again, thinking about fucking Christmas.
Idk if it's because I'm spending it with my mom and pops orrr if it's because I get to be with Pj and Kelly for the holiday season. I REALLY want to get a tree, but we won't have any room for one which is incredibly sad. I'm already thinking about how we can rearrange things so we can fit a small one or where I can put stockings up.
Fucking pathetic? I think so, kids. I think so.
Yesterday sucked fucking dick. I was by myself at work for the majority of it which was kind of a disaster, and balancing my cashbox was even worse. The power went out the last time that I worked, so I had to balance manually, and I'm pretty sure that something got fucked up between then and now. I'm less than excited to go into work today, because I know that Becky is going to be all over me talking about it and trying to figure out what happened, and I just don't want to fucking deal with it right now. I came home, didn't say a word to anyone, and went right into the shower to cry. It was less than exciting. I finally fell asleep around 1030 [I was ready to fucking sleep once 8pm hit =\ ] once I stopped being ridiculous about things that REALLY didn't matter [yes, I realize I was upset which makes it matter in itself, but when I get like that, I overreact about EVERYTHING which is why it really wasn't important].
...
Okay it was important. And if I just would have fucking said it without worrying about sounding ridiculous then I probably would have had a good night to end my horrible day. When have you ever thought that I sounded ridiculous when I was upset? Oh yea, that's right. Never.
Alright, I need to get ready for what could potentially be another horrible day at work. I'm glad that I have tomorrow off. REALLY glad. I'm probably going to drown myself in the pool all day.
Maybe I'm amazed at the way you love me all the time
Maybe I'm afraid of the way I love you
Maybe I'm amazed at the way you pulled me out of time
and hung me on a line
Maybe I'm amazed at the way I really need you
Maybe I'm a girl and maybe I'm a lonely girl
who's in the middle of something
that she doesn't really understand
Maybe I'm a girl and maybe you're the only man
who could ever help me
Baby, won't you help me understand
Maybe I'm amazed at the way you're with me all the time
Maybe I'm afraid of the way I lead you
Maybe I'm amazed at the way you help me sing my song
Right me when I'm wrong
Maybe I'm amazed at the way I really need you
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2008 7 July :: 7.07am
I feel restless and unsettled.
Sigh. SH time sounds ridiculously good right now, and I want that more than anything =\
I'm praying today goes by fast so that I can be back home already. 10 hour days ftl =[
Edit: It's probably the isolated/scattered thunderstorms that is in the forecast for the entire day. It's pretty much the only time when I feel like I don't have control over things. Normally it's a very humbling feeling, but sometimes it just makes me feel really off my game like I don't have control over anything. It always makes me really quiet and slightly frustrated.
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2008 5 July :: 11.16pm
I lost my WoW virginity today. I feel kind of dirty, like I need to wash my hands, but I'll get over it.
Mainly I feel like weaksauce because I said I would never play it, but I finally gave in to the peer pressure and temptation that was supplied by Pj and Kelly.
We're getting a canary too. Soon. Hopefully after I get my half of the stimulus check. Which should be sometime this week if Shawn doesn't have his head up his ass.
Kbai.
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2008 3 July :: 11.31am
I vacuumed and cleaned out the microwave which made me feel slightly better about how horribly this morning has been going. I'm now very much wishing we had hot water so I could take a damn shower.
I'm very glad that I opted to stay home for the carpet guy. They left the door open the whole damn time which means that Slayer and Stabby would be god knows where at this point, and it would have been my fault. I didn't think about locking them up somewhere until I saw the carpet van thingy in front of our building, and then I was like hm. I should probably put them in the bathroom.
I cleaned the microwave while he was doing his thing, and then I vacuumed after he left. And then I heard from Chassa.
Her mom had a mastectomy not too long ago, and they did a tummy tuck and used the fat from there to make her a new bewb. Well, apparently her incision on her stomach got infected really bad, and it got into her blood. She's currently in ICU unable to breathe without the use of a respirator.
So once again I feel helpless because Chassa pretty much my fucking sister, and I'm here in Michigan unable to be there for her the way I want to be. I'm scared as hell for her mom too because cancer is not something to mess around with. My dad walked down that road, and thankfully he made it through just fine. Not everyone is that lucky though, and I've had bad feelings about this from the start. I'm so scared she's not going to make it, and even more scared about how Chassa is going to handle it if things reach that point.
I've only been up for 3 fucking hours. What else will go wrong? =[
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2008 3 July :: 9.06am
4 months, yay!
I barely slept at all last night. I had some stupid dream about my teeth falling out, and every time I have a dream like that it really REALLY creeps me out. So I tossed and turned all night long. I was exhausted, but I couldn't manage to actually fall asleep. I kind of slept for an hour or two after Pj left for work, and when my alarm went off, it left me feeling hung over. My eyes are heavy, my muscles are shaky, and I'm crabbier than a mother fucker.
And to top it all off, I have a feeling today is going to go by excruciatingly slow because tomorrow is the start of a 3 day weekend, AND the 4th which is one of my favorite holidays. So of course my silent wish for my day to go by fast will not be granted because I never get that kind of luck.
I'm just tired. And I want to cry. I hate feeling like this.
Oh, and to top it all off, I get to most likely spend the last weekend of July all by my damn self because there's no way I'll be able to go to Farmington for the CQC airsoft game. There's only 3 tellers, and Becky already requested off for that weekend =[ I won't get out of work until 5 or 6, and they're already be there by then. Today sucks. A lot =[
One more edit. To make my morning even worse, we don't have any fucking hot water for the 2nd time in a week. So now I'm just pissed. Pissed. Frustrated. Crying. =[
Oh and the maintenance guy came over at like 10:20am and asked if someone was going to be home so that the carpet cleaning guy was coming over. He had no idea what time the guy was coming, and I said that Pj would for sure be here around 2, but I guess that wasn't good enough. So now here I am. Waiting. Still pissed. Still frustrated. Still on the edge of tears.
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2008 2 July :: 8.31pm
Chase bank in Caledonia is opening up a 20 hour teller position in case anyone is interested. Kthxbai.
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2008 30 June :: 10.27am
Corny as FUCK, but I still smiled when I heard it =] ILMSH!
We should get jerseys
Cause we make a good team
But yours would look better than mine
Cause you're out of my league
And I know that it's so cliche
To tell you that everyday
I spend with you is the new best day of my life
And everyone watching us
Just turns away with disgust
This jealously
They can see that we've got it going on
I can not wait for a new improved way
To let you know you're more to me than what I know how to say
You're ok with the way this is going to be
Cause this is going to be the best thing we've ever seen
If anyone could make me a better person, you could
All I gotta say is I must have done something good
You came along one day and you rearranged my life
All I gotta say is I must have done something right
I must have done something right
Maybe I'm just lucky
Cause it's hard to believe
That somebody like you'd end up with someone like me
And I know that it's so cliche
To talk about you this way
But I'll push all my inhibitions aside
It's so very obvious
To everyone watching us
That we have got something real good going on
I can not wait for a new improved way
To let you know you're more to me than I know how to say
You're ok with the way this is going to be
Cause this is going to be the best thing that we've ever seen
If anyone could make me a better person, you could
All I gotta say is I must have done something good
You came along one day and you rearranged my life
All I gotta say is I must have done something right
I must have done something right
If anyone could make me a better person, you could
All I gotta say is I must have done something good
You came along one day and you rearranged my life
All I gotta say is I must have done something right
I must have done something right
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2008 30 June :: 9.12am
I'm only going to say this once.
I have a big problem with unavailable men/boys openly flirting and/or hitting on girls. The question is WHY. Whether you do it publicly or privately where only you two are around, WHY WOULD YOU DO IT. Have you ever thought about how your girlfriend/fiance/wife would feel if she saw it/heard it/found out about it? Have you ever wondered how you would feel if you heard about/saw her saying those things to another guy especially behind your back?
Guys may not always be the jealous types although I do know that some exist, but females are a different story. It hurts--a LOT-- when their significant other flirts with and hits on other females.
Maybe it's just me because Loren did that allllll the time. 3 years of my life that I wasted on hoping he would change. It was enough to completely jade me on the topic, and hearing about guys that do this pisses me off to no end. KNOWING guys that do this is even worse, and it doesn't sit well with me.
I have hopes that I have found a guy who is above all of this, and I don't want to hear 'it's a guy thing,' because that is NOT an acceptable answer. Getting hurt over and over again isn't worth said "guy things."
I wish she would understand that.
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2008 28 June :: 6.51pm
Hilariousness
Soooo I learned how to drive a manual transmission car in about 20 minutes. I still need to work on starting from a dead stop, but I'm sure that ownage will come in due time. If it's nice tomorrow, I'll probably beg Pj to take me out again; it's a LOT of fun =D
Funny story.
Pj stole my bowl of spaghettios and made me think that I was actually crazy. I thought I had forgotten where I put it. Kelly checked the fridge and the cupboard, and he made me close and open the microwave again to make sure it didn't magically appear. Pj was awfully quiet through all of this, so finally I was like HEY. What did you do. Aaand there I saw my bowl of spaghettios on my desk. I was laughing so fucking hard and crying because I really thought that I was crazy. You probably would have had to be there to experience the true humor, but it was pretty great.
I called my dad immediately afterwards, and the story made him swell with pride. He was pretty happy that Pj did a good job haha.
Winsauce, and stuff.
I need to go to Barnes and Noble; my book is almost finished.
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