ohsht// she needs to die, kthx

:: 2005 17 August :: 9.48pm
:: Music: Nakashima Mika - Carrot & Whip

PSHWA. I went to Japan in like April. And now is when I have the pictures. xDD =] I`m such a loser. mmk.

DUDE. IT Took me about like An hour to update and add like captions to them :D

KK. THIS IS GOING TO REALLY REALLY LONG. I MEAN REALLY LONG.
SHINEY. :D

OOH. STILL SHINEY =]

MAY I RUB YOUR TUMMY?

What would I call with? WHY ARE YOU NO USE?!

B-A-N-A-N-A-S!

TOSS IT IN.

OMG. POCKY. -DROOLS-

DRINKS. :D

HOW PRETTY.

PALACE. HEAVILY GUARDED.

PREETY.

PAVEMENT!

BAMBI.

GO THIS WAY.

DON`TLOOKDOWN. <3

DONTLOOKDOWN <33

WOWWIE.

CUTE.

FOOD.

WANTA FANTA?

YUM YUM IN MY TUM TUM.

MONKEY. [=

HELLO KITTY. <3

JAPAN FASHION <3

CONVERSE. MIX`N MATCH

SANYOSANYOSANYO

THE JAPANESE SAILOR MAN

THE BIG LANTURN.

Please don`t copy/redistrubute/steal these pictures. These are my memories and I wish to share them with everyone. If you want them so much, go to Japan. There is so much for you to take.

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:: 2005 17 August :: 7.42pm
:: Music: Lee Jung Hyun - [Something in Korean]

I`m better.
Thanks guys. :D I`m feeling a little bit better. My mom still is pretty pissy. But that`s kinda normal.

I like poured my feelings to like 2 awesome friends yesterday, like completely. I`ve never had a person listen to my problems before so that was nice. And cause it`s hard for me to trust people. But whatever.

And tomorrow is registration. :D And I`m walking there with Nikki so I won`t be alone when I get there. P: There is like 800 people there I don`t know so I would feel pretty weird being alone.

I don`t think I`ll be posting in the guild for awhile.

:: 2005 16 August :: 8.10pm
:: Mood: depressed
:: Music: Nothing.

..
I feel so unwanted right now. It really sucks. My mom like called me stupid. And it hurt a lot because she was already mad and I knew she actually ment it. And I can`t stop crying.

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:: 2005 14 August :: 2.38pm
:: Music: Chemistry - Let`s Get Together (Tokyo Calling)

BLEHBLEHBLEH. (:
Registration is next week D: The Orientation is next week. WHY IS THE SUN SETTING ON SUMMER?! How I would love for at least 1 more month. That`s cause I`m lazy. :D

Kirara so lucky. She found what she wants to do. I think. I wish I made a strong decision on what I want to do for a living and work hard for it to come true. But all I can do now is just get good grades. P: BLEH. I have no idea. D:

Well, today I went to develop my Japan pictures which has expired at least 2 months ago. LMAO. Told you I`m lazy. And I got a new Jansport Red backpack for school. eww. School. bleh. Whatever.

I don`t care anymore.

:: 2005 10 August :: 8.56pm
:: Music: Otsuka Ai - Himiwari

:D NOTHING REALLY.
Damn music. I don`t think music works on woohu.. ): But yeah. Whatever. My mommy said if I get straight A`s for a year, I can get to go to Japan again. And MAYBE South Korean and Taiwan. But now that I think of it. I don`t want to go there just yet. I would rather get a digital camera first and then go on vacation. (: But I hope I live to see the day. ):

I`m always scared that, I can never see tomorrow. Not that I`m sick or anything. But it`s just scary. D: I hate the feeling. hehehe. o_____o^

I still cry over my dad`s death. Kinda silly since it`s almost a year now. CAN YOU BELIEVE IT? A Whole year. Almost. The end of August is approaching. P: And Like yeah. I wonder what I will do on that day. D:

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:: 2005 5 August :: 9.57pm

This Layout sucks and it`s hard to read. But I`ll put another one up soon, hopefully. (:

Something`s weerd about my PS7 When I save for the web. xD
Like I don`t know what but it gets all fizzy and the picture doesn`t come out smooth. ): But whatever.

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:: 2005 5 July :: 7.05pm

AND BOOM. I`m gone. <3

:: 2005 30 June :: 12.00pm
:: Music: Nothing.

ACK!
Damnit. I have to finish coloring a picture by tomorrow night.. D; I didn`t even start on the lineart yet. D: D: I wasted my time drawing other things for other contests that isn`t even going to end until like August or whatever. blehhh. But then tomorrow I`m staying home so I have a whole day to finish it. I hope I do. ): I might have to draw another picture also. D:!

Well, here in the Bay Area, Northern California, the weather has turned abruptly high. D: I hate heat. And I`m staying at a cheap person`s house and they don`t like to use air conditioner. o_o

I should like change the layout now. It`s getting so old..

I also need a new user look-up for Neo. o_o I made a new account and joined Apri`s Guild.

:: 2005 30 May :: 11.18pm

How disappointing. Trying to take your life away. Does it even matter to you how people that love you are going to feel? No, it doesn`t matter how many times we say it. You just don`t listen. You`ve had someone that you love taken away. So just pretend you are in our shoes. We love you. And you try to kill yourself. Which is even worse then just passing away. It makes me feel like I`m worthless in your heart. That no matter how many times I say that I care for you and that I love you, you just can`t seem to hear me. Do you really want to leave all your friends that much.? Do you have so much hatred and grief all around you that you can`t seem to find a way out beside suicide.?

Bad things happen to everybody. Some more to others. But to live life, you`ve got to deal with it and move on. If you die, you won`t get to see tomorrow and what is held inside it. I understand that some people can`t help but be depressed and can`t seem to see the brighter side of things. But you aren`t like that. You are mostly happy and excited. Don`t try to suicide again. Do you think you will make your family any happier.? All it would do is bring us grief. More grief. Even more until our eyes gouge out.

Don`t cut yourself either. It disgusts me. How people think cutting themselves make them feel better. It`s like if they want more attention to their sad lives. I`m sorry if I seem to a hypocrite or a bossy bitchy stupid girl, but I don`t like seeing people getting hurt.

Please don`t try to suicide again. I hope you won`t try to suicide again. I wish you won`t try to suicide again.

Honestly to tell you the truth. You were the strongest person I knew.

:: 2005 19 May :: 8.05pm

CLICKMEMAYCLIKCME <3

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:: 2003 3 September :: 10.12pm

Got the new Hyesung and MinWoo CD. <3

Got Gackt`s Cresent and Love Letter CD. <3

Got SE7EN`s Must Listen CD. <3

Got 17k on Gaia. <3
The stupid rollback gave me like 1700 back but Lost my horns. ):. WTF. But I got my March `O5. But then I opened it. Decided not to sell Kiki Kitty until it like reaches it`s breaking point. Or when I have too. Stupid rollback didn`t have any effect.

I wish my school burned too. BURN BABY BURN. DISCO INFERNO BABY. (:

Watched Soccer Games today. It was much more interesting then I thought it was. (: Going again next week. yaye.

Went to Great America on Friday. It was fun, But I hate Roller Coasters. They scare me and Make my heart hurt. And that`s a no no. D;

Changed the date on today`s journal entry. (: First day meeting Kikyou and Haruka. OMGIREMEMBER. No. I found a paper thingy.

I thought this was STUPID

I cannot believe how incredibly stupid you are. I mean rock-hard stupid. Dehydrated-rock-hard stupid. Stupid so stupid that it goes way beyond the stupid we know into a whole different dimension of stupid. You are trans-stupid stupid. Meta-stupid. Stupid collapsed on itself so far that even the neutrons have collapsed. Stupid gotten so dense that intellect can escape. Singularity stupid. Blazing hot mid-day sund on Mercury stupid. You emit more stupid in one second than our entire galaxy emits in a year. Quasar stupid. Your writing has to be a troll. Nothing in our universe can really be this stupid. Perhaps this some primodial fragment from the original big bang of stupid. some pure essence of a stupid so uncontaminated by anything else as to be beyond the laws of physics that we know. I`m sorry. I can`t go on. This is an epiphany of stupid for me. After this, you may not hear from me again for a while. I don`t have enougth strength left to deride youignorant questions and half baked comments about unimportant trivia or any of the rest of this drivel. DUH.

:: 2005 2 April :: 9.48pm

DUDE. May let me like draw the poke`mon thingys that she started. So I tried one. And I`m going to give it to her cause she rocks and she made the coolest eevee I`ve ever seen. POWER TO MAY .. AND EEVEES. x] But more power to May cause she rocks.

Hey, my hair smells good. I was fwishing my hair away from a bug. o_o IT LIKES MY HAIR SMELL TOO. That`s why it`s going crazy. x]

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:: 2005 31 March :: 11.35am
:: Mood: LYK OMG. A CALIFORNIA GIRL.
:: Music: Hollaback byyyyy Gwen Stefani.

THIS SHIT IT BANANANANANAS.
I R BACK. [= AND AND. Like everything in a Japanese Manga, COMES TRUE. Kinda of. o_o; LIKE BOYS WEAR THE COOL UNIFORM AND THE GIRLS WEAR LIKE THE COOL UNIFORMS. o_o And And umm.. PEOPLE DON`T GET OFF WORK UNTIL LIKE 11.30 at NIGHT. )= AND AND. KIDDY LAND ROCKS. x] Umm. POCKY IS LIKE EVERYERERERE WHERE. umm. I bought like 15 Hello Kitty cell phones thingy. I`ll take pictures of them. THEY ARE SO HOTT. o_o I think. Umm. Not to sound like a perv or anything. BUT THEY HAVE BIG BUTTS. o_o; ! I`m serious. It`s like in your face. o_o K. Sorrae.

Everybody is at school. OMG AND I SAW LIKE KIMONO PEOPLE WITH MAKE-UP. o_o; And We went to a Weenie Temple. o_o Where people pray if they want a .. boy. OVERALL IT WAS SO COOL. I`M TOKYO-HOME-SICK. )=

NEW LAYOUT?. I feel bored with noone to talk to. AND OMG I MISSED YOU, guys. But you guys seem to go on about. x] I`m not like making it up. I`ve known like some of you guys for like. How many years.? Or months. If my math is like stupid.

I like your poke`mon Icons, MAY. o_o They are so preeeety. DUDE I DIDN`T GET TO SEE THE POKE`MON PLANE. I got so pisssed. )=

Yeah and Kagome, you are beautiful. And And APRI, I miss talking to you.

DUDE. Did anyone wish Haruka-chan a Happy birthdae? Cause if you like did. then like you Rock but like if you didn`t then like you don`t rock. And rocking is like COOL. And cool is like uncool, which is like me. *(:

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:: 2005 16 March :: 3.24pm
:: Mood: curious
:: Music: SHIMMY SHIMMY QUARTER TURN.

i`M kinda boreddd sooo.

You are

What Rejected Crayon Are You?

I`m also a SPANK ME PINK. (=

:: 2005 13 March :: 8.19pm
:: Mood: Uncomfortabley Touched. o_o;
:: Music: BUDDDDY HOLY. I dunno` by whooom.

i`M SO FACKiN` NATURE-ISTIC
o_o. We went Hiking todae. It was funn I guess. but BUT BUT. THE HIGHLIGHT OF MY DAY. :BBBBB

K. Like where I went hiking, THE PINACLE, in FRESNO, CALI. Or like I call it THE PINACLE OF DEATH. o_o yeah So the whole thing is about these works that fell and like now form stupid trails for stupid nature people like me. So we made it through the first cave WHICH WAS SCARY AND DARK.!~ And then we had to walk in cold stream water. So it was reallly cold. and like when we got out the first one. We were like let`s just climb this big steep hill instead of going through the water again. WHAT A FCUKING MISTACK. Mistack. SWEET. K. So we started climbing after this one white guy that said it was SAFE. )= BASTARD. So when I got to the middle my foot lost grasp on the rocks. AND I SLID. Like 2 centimeters. IT WAS REALLY SHARP. Yeah and like now I have a scratch on my hand. )= It started bleeding. yeah yeah. SCARY HUH. And like we found out that the waterway had like logs and like rocks to climb over and it was a hell of an easier way to go. STUPID WHITE GUY. I COULD OF DIEDIDIDIDD. and like broken something.

My mom just slapped me. Right across my fcuking neck. Just because I nevermind. She never slapped for that before. JUST CAUSE THE FUCKING PIZZA GUY. SHE`S SUCH A FUCKING BITCH.

Shiori

:: 2005 28 February :: 5.39pm

Friends Only

For those of you already on my list, you don't have to worry.

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:: 2005 27 February :: 12.01pm
:: Mood: sad
:: Music: The video thing that Kikyou posted about MARS. [= it`s a DANDY song

I LOVE YOU. <33~
yeah . can`t upload any icons since stupid photobucket rebuilds their disks i sound so frikken smart. ahh. yeah I keep on saying yeah. well `nyways it`s sundae o_o one day before school starts agen; `nd half a year passing. D;. but i`m not gonna cry. at least not in the open like right now. maybe tonight at 11.05 D; he left so frikken early in my life. i mean he doesn`t even get to see my brother graduate from school for the first time. I mean he never got an education so he would be really happy to see us graduate. but he doesn`t cause he left. and I hate it. i realized that when I was little, I used to hang out with my aunt a lot. but when i`m not with her I`m always with my dad. and as I grew older, i never spent that much time with him. I mean people say that i`m so happy, that i act that my dad passing away doesn`t even bring a burden to my heart. but it does. I can say my dad passed away so easily but if I really think about it . I`m alone and i`m looking for him. i`m always thinking. where is my dad ? why isn`t he here? and then I remember. that he`s gone. that i`ll never hear his voice again. I mean a lot of people dad passed away. but that`s mostly because they were old or because they grew up and had their own families. but i`m still a kid. and I still need him.

none of my friends know how I feel. I never tell them. all they know is my happy side the side when i`m smiling and happy and hyper. but i`m not trying to sound like i`m a frikken emo kid or stuff like that. it`s just that. I feel that I can`t talk to anyone because noone knows how i feel. and they don`t understand. and i have to keep everything inside and it kinda hurts but i`m not going to frikken suicide for it. o_o but i`m okay now. this kinda hit me harder than i thought because I told myself that i wouldn`t cry. but i did )=

the only thing that I could say in the hospital when seeing my dad for the last time was i love you, daddy over and over again. and I truly mean it. [= with all my heart and i always will. (;

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:: 2005 11 February :: 10.47pm
:: Mood: hyper
:: Music: Ever; NB riderzz

nuhtin` much..
Would you yes you be my valentine? <3.

One more week of school and then OFFF for february break. yesss~ WELL WELL. I`ve lost my drawing skills. I couldn`t draw for like 4 days. I`m having drawing block. as Kanna calls it. ;D yaye. I might get a LJ, cause cause everybody there journal to friends only and Jubei can`t read it so I have to get one. which kinda means. 3 journals to update. [= [= [= [= I`m really excited. Can`t you tell.?

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:: 2005 8 February :: 9.48pm
:: Music: Nuhtin`

FOBB.
I hate yearbook. Because I do. IT`S SO *CENSOREDCENSOREDCENSORED*

I love drawing. WANNA SEEEEEE?!?!?. yennoe` you want to (ish clickable). it`s for GAIA. cause i`m kewl like that. But I`m poor. Ohh so poor. Wanna give me gold?. Thought so. )= It`s not the besteresteresteresteresiiiesrtest drawing. But cut me some slack.

hehe. yeah yeah yeah. HAPPY NEW YEARS!!. (=

Sishey`s biirthdae is almost hereererere. and so it Teresa`s. yaye. they are going bowling. which is kewl. Cause bowling is coool.

Mr. Lewis isn`t here `nymore. I think. )= He was soo kewl, too. Yeah. School was boring.

I hate yearbook. Bye. ;D