He seemed no different from the rest Just a healthy normal boy His mama always did her best And he was daddy's pride and joy He learned to walk and talk on time But never cared much to be held and steadily he would decline Into his solitary shell As a boy he was considered somewhat odd Kept to himself most of the time He would daydream in and out of his own world but in every other way he was fine He's a Monday morning lunatic Disturbed from time to time Lost within himself In his solitary shell A temporary catatonic Madman on occasion When will he break out Of his solitary shell He struggled to get through his day He was helplessly behind He poured himself onto the page Writing for hours at a time As a man he was a danger to himself Fearful and sad most of the time He was drifting in and out of sanity But in every other way he was fine He's a Monday morning lunatic Disturbed from time to time Lost within himself In his solitary shell A momentary maniac With casual delusions When will he be let out Of his solitary shell


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:: 2011 27 August :: 7.57 pm

I don't know what compelled me to log into this site today. I can't believe I even remember my login info. I feel like I have something to say but nothing is coming to me. I guess I don't.

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:: 2006 12 April :: 2.52 pm

why did i bother coming to this site today? why am i bothering to write here? the only people that know about this, and could possibly read it all hate me. so why am i here? dont know... there are a lot of things i dont know.
i do know what im doing right now and i know what im going to do next, and for the rest of the evening. that i do know... i dont know why i haven't called kathryn back yet either. i told her i would and i want to but i just havent...
i really dont know why im writing in here... you all hate me anyway no matter what i do

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:: 2005 10 October :: 8.26 pm

My parents are watching Wan Helsing...that brings back soooo many memories. Many good and many bad...but overall its a happier feeling reflecting on the experience

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:: 2005 26 September :: 7.13 pm

boring survey, only read if your bored
These are supposedly 26 questions that no one would ever think to ask. Answer them, then REPOST the bulletin:

1. When you look at yourself in the mirror, what's the first thing you look at? : my hair...is it so messy that i am forced to fix it or can i just leave it and get away with it?
2. How much cash do you have on you? : $20
3. What's a word that rhymes with "TEST": Pest
4. Favorite planet?: Pluto
5. Who is the 4th person on your missed call list on your MOBILE phone? : Mom
6. What is your main ring tone on your phone?: Your Body is a wonderland
7. What shirt are you wearing?: Black hooded sweater
8. Do you "label" yourself?: Band Dork, Theatre Freak, Loser...yes
9. Name the brand of your shoes you're currently wearing?: im wearing striped socks. but normally i wear payless shoes i dont know what brand cuz it wore off because there the greatest shoes ever and i wear them almost everyday!
10. Bright or Dark Room? which do i prefer or which do i have? i have purple elephants on my walls covered up by many show posters, props, and picture frames with cool people in them. oh and an awesome cymbal :) so its technicolor...
11. What do you think about the person who took this survey before you?: Keister Rocks!
12. Ever "spilled the beans"?: im not totally sure on that one
13. What were you doing at midnight last night?: eating truffles
14. What did your last text message you received on your cell phone say?: today was a long day
15. Do you ever click on "Pop Ups" or Banners?: no, theyre annoying
16. What's a saying that you say a lot?: thats cute
17. Who told you they loved you last: Matt
18. Last furry thing you touched?: K.C.
19. How Many Drugs Have You Done In The Past Three Days? just Levoxyl and thats perscription
20. How many rolls of film do you need to get developed? like 4 and i got a digital camera 3 years ago so i dont even know whats on them
21. Favorite age you have been so far? 18
22. Your worst enemy?: school
23. What is your current desktop picture?: Mexico...blue water blue sky, palm trees and white sand. its pretty, i just changed it today
24. What was the last thing you said to someone?: I got excited when my mom brought me my pills. i think i said yay! thank you! (exciting right?
25. If you had to choose between a million bucks or to be able to change a major regret?: million bucks...the things i regret i have learned to put past me and get over...so in okay right now
26. Do you love / like someone?: Yes! :)

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:: 2005 29 August :: 7.20 pm
:: Music: Emo raido station

This weekend was purdy good if you were wondering...

Friday i only had one class :) then i just took care of some stuff i'd been meaning to do, and worked a wee bit and then went hot tubbin with that kid...
Then saturday i partied hard with Elisa when we went to visit david at school and couldnt find him cuz he went home so we just went to this random frat party...lol funny joke...yeah i compleatly convinced matt that all of that was true, david came home for real and the 3 of us hung out for a while, but yeah i was joking around with matt cuz he was with ben and asked where i was and somehow he believed me...then david went over to his house, we thought for sure he'd figure it out but he just said hey jill davids over...so i said ha! thats why we couldnt find him. He kept thinking it was weird that i left the state and didnt tell him...hehe. then i walked into his house and just stood there. it was so funny. yeah but you had to actually be there. yeah...

im listening to yahoo radio, the emo station its sweet... hehe they play jimmy eat world and fall out boy. jill likes. :)

woo theatre class tomorrow! I am not going to tell you how much of a dork i am because you will laugh, because even my mother laughed at me when i told her what i did, so i will keep this to myself now...hehe

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:: 2005 17 August :: 10.12 pm

I wish i didnt have to play the other people liking my boyfriend game...but i guess thats just life. ill get used to it.

speaking of my boyfriend...he has friends, and they talk to him, and sometimes when my "friends" talk to him while he's at work, they tell my boyfriend about it...thanks guys...thanks a lot...

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:: 2005 15 August :: 10.27 pm

Current Location:Libertyville
Eye Color:Brown
Hair Color:Brown
Right Handed or Left Handed:Lefty!
Your Heritage:Czechslovakian, Polish, and as I revently discovered Russian...long story
The Shoes You Wore Today:Target flip flops
Your Weakness:Yoda
Your Fears:dying, being lost and alone
Your Perfect Pizza:cheese
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year:re establish myself in theatre at new school, and not to fail any classes
Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger:i dont even know...?
Thoughts First Waking Up:what time is it?
Your Best Physical Feature:ha thats funny? there has to be one good one in order for there to be a best...
Your Bedtime:2 or 3
Your Most Missed Memory:Caesar and h2$, for many reasonons...
Pepsi or Coke:i cant tell the difference
MacDonalds or Burger King:Burger king, cuz they have veggie burgers!!!
Single or Group Dates:single
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea:neither
Chocolate or Vanilla:both are good for me
Cappuccino or Coffee:cappuccino
Do you Smoke:no
Do you Swear:yes
Do you Sing:yes, but i shouldn't
Do you Shower Daily:yes
Have you Been in Love:yes... ; *
Do you want to go to College:i am right now
Do you want to get Married:yes
Do you belive in yourself:no
Do you get Motion Sickness:very badly
Do you think you are Attractive:no
Are you a Health Freak:not really... but i should be
Do you get along with your Parents:yea on a daily basis...
Do you like Thunderstorms:yes
Do you play an Instrument:YES!!! :D
In the past month have you Drank Alcohol:yes
In the past month have you Smoked:no
In the past month have you been on Drugs:no
In the past month have you gone on a Date:not really
In the past month have you gone to a Mall:yesterday! woo
In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos:i ate a to go pack or oreos does that count?
In the past month have you eaten Sushi:ew no
In the past month have you been on Stage:i wish...
In the past month have you been Dumped:no
In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping:no
In the past month have you Stolen Anything:no
Ever been Drunk:no
Ever been called a Tease:no
Ever been Beaten up:6th grade...kid knocked me out
Ever Shoplifted:no
How do you want to Die:cat walk or battens...
What do you want to be when you Grow Up:lighting designer
What country would you most like to Visit:france
In a Boy/Girl..
Favourite Eye Color:brown
Favourite Hair Color:meh...
Short or Long Hair:long
Height:taller than me
Weight:skinny boys
Best Clothing Style:not caring, but not showing underwear
Number of Drugs I have taken:none
Number of CDs I own:too many
Number of Piercings:ears
Number of Tattoos:none
Number of things in my Past I Regret:1 or 2


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:: 2005 20 June :: 11.58 pm

Im going to Mexico tomorrow...i wont be around for a while, bye everyone, if that matters

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:: 2005 3 June :: 10.20 am

Blah Senior assembly was today, and BAcklight Banguet was last night. I didnt cry today or last night, its very suprising. I would have cried last night if the end of the year video was better, but it was all actors, acting and such. So that had no affect on me. In the senior video today there were parts where i was dancing in pep band. And there were a lot of times where i was like hey! i was standing right next to that person but i got cut off. And of course there was the part with me and david from turnabout. And now im in the library because i dont know what to do, and i didnt want to do anything i wanted to just sit in the music department but they wouldnt let anyone sign in so im here. But im alone i dont know where patrice went. Which is why i am tlaking to myself in this wornderful journal entry. so today is the last day of school. and the bell just rang and i dont know what that means, no one is moving. I still have to sit here in severe boredom for much longer. poop.

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:: 2005 27 May :: 9.20 am

Last night was the last band concert...but i didnt cry. Im suprised. I really thought i was going to. O well...Assembly today woo! that means 5 minutes less of boring classes! :) that makes me happy weeeeeeee! i did pretty well with my color slides yesterday, thats sweet i can finish today, and then do my final woo hoo! :D!!! Things are goin dude....they're goin

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