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:: 2006 24 October :: 9.57 pm
:: Mood: accomplished

I didnt think i would ever get a computer of my own. But I DID. It's totally weird. I bought it a few months ago, but I didn't have internet access for ....oh....EVER.

But finally, I went to Best Buy and got my Linksys. So I can finally communicate like every other human being.



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:: 2006 10 June :: 9.18 am
:: Mood: tired

I need a comp of my own. This is pathetic. Truly. I love the internet with all my heart, but this long-distance relationship between my computer and I is tearing me apart. So I'm hereby starting a "GIVE CAITLIN A COMPUTER OF HER OWN, GODDAMNIT." So do it. DO IT.

I'm gonna go because I have to lead a carwash for the band. *band geek...cough cough... cough* ...yesh... so



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:: 2006 22 January :: 2.43 pm

No computer?
I know...How could one live without a computer? well, I have to. Until I can buy one of my own. And as of right now, that can't happen. My job pays too low to buy a new car that I'm saving for, my rent, AND my own computer. So instead, I use public computers, or friends'. Right now, I'm in a Lollicup in Rocklin. As if anyone knows where that is. But I'm using their computers. I feel so lame. There's an asian lady giving me the evil eye about 10 feet behind me.

I guess that's a signal to leave now.

I'll try my hardest to get my own comp. Until then, my updates will be few and far between.


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:: 2005 10 December :: 1.45 pm
:: Mood: tired
:: Music: Hedwig's theme (harry Potter)

It's been a while.
Okay, so I haven't been able to update, on account of the fact that my father believes that I should live undr a rock for the rest of my life, and I shouldn't be allowed to use his computer. So, I'm using Alex's. But Alex doesn't like it when I use her computer either. So I have to go...again. Sorry.

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:: 2005 19 June :: 1.55 pm
:: Mood: indescribable
:: Music: Stairway to Heaven

Father's Day
So it's Father's Day, right? Well, I feel terrible. My dad is the only one in my family that I actually like, and I didn't have the money to get him anything for today. I feel horrible. I got him a card. That's it. *sniffle* I suck at being a daughter.

But instead, we decided to throw him a party next month. It's his birthday then. So we're gonna go all out for the party, and hopefully he'll forget about this shitty father's day. It's a Monty Carlo Night. I'll have to dress like a slut and serve appetizers on those little waitress trays. But, as stupid as I'll feel, it'll be for Daddy, so I'll try not to mess things up. Why would I, you ask? Because I hate his friends. They're loud, abnoxious drunks. I wish they'd all get alcohol poisoning.

On a happier note, I'm supposed to be going to my friend, Andrea's house tomorrow. She and I are going to watch "Ghost World", which I have yet to see. And then, probably "Hedwig and the Angry Inch". That's one of my favorite movies of all-time. I love the scene when Hedwig and Tommy Gnosis are breathing through each other. It's so awesome. And then I have to watch the director's cut of Donnie Darko. I've seen that movie SO many times. But you can never have enough Donnie, I guess.

That's all for now.


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:: 2005 18 June :: 7.46 pm

Paul McCartney
It's Paul McCartney's birthday, everyone!!! He's 63 today! It's incredible. Next year...he'll be...sixty four. That makes sense. Anyways, my friend Alex is , like, in love with him. So she threw a party for his birthday today. Thats where I'm at right now. I'm updating from her comp. We're playing "Stick the Pin in Yoko Ono's Eye". It's alex's version of pin the tail on the donkey, but toward hatred and obsenity. She's obsessed. Mwahahahaha. She's reading over my shoulder. Shes crazy. screaming, "He is too my husband! He just doesnt know it!". Suuuure, Alex. ...Sure.


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:: 2005 15 June :: 10.12 pm
:: Mood: aggravated

Daily Rant
it really gets on my nerves when you talk to people online, and they're talknig to so many people at once, that they keep answering with short answers every five minutes. " uh-huh"...."yeah"..."Lol"..."yup"...and then when you tell them to talk to you when they're less distracted, they start getting all whiny..."Don't be like that!"...."I'm not distracted!"...thats just annoys me. i have this problem with almost everyone on my contacts list, but most outstandingly, my boyfriend. we'll hang up the phone and tell each other to get online, then he'll be in this distant tone when he's talking. And he's usually talking to 5 other people, rather than me. And im just going to have to wait to talk to him later. Its my biggest pet peeve. Ugh, absurd. So, if you're one of those people, please do me a favor:

Pay attention to whoever you're talking to. Just close the other conversations for a while. It doesnt hurt, and it'll show someone that you care.

And if you're not one of those people:

Thank you. Im sure people really enjoy talking to you online, because you pay attention, and make them feel like they're worth talking to.


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:: 2005 30 January :: 3.35 pm

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:: 2005 30 January :: 9.12 am
:: Mood: excited
:: Music: Stairway to Heaven, Pink Floyd

Thank you, Valoth for the color chart. That's what I've been asking for for weeks. Saving that site to favorites, that I am.

I have a new webbie. If anyone cares... I finally got my chatroom up. And working. And that makes me very happy. So go!


yeh, its not great, but its something. I'm actually proud of my chatroom, isnt that sad? I know, I know. But go. I'm usually there. But in order to see the sign in list, you have to sign in yourself, first.


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:: 2005 27 January :: 5.35 pm
:: Mood: annoyed

i told my boyfriend i thought his ex was pretty. i shouldn't have done that. biiiiig oopsie. oh well, i'll get over it...right? i took a closer look at some of her other pics, and realized shes actually not all that great. that cheered me up. but still. i think he's going to think im weird for saying that.

arg! this chair is ultra uncomfortable. anyone want to contribute to the "new chair for Caitlin fund"? its very helpful. my sore rear-end will thank you much. ^__^

i want ramen. and when i eat ramen i want cake. is that weird? or is it just me??

i went to school today. surprise. lol. just kidding. (i refuse to say jk. that is way too bubbly for me, thank you very much.) but at school, i realized how pointless japanese two is, if you already can speak it well enough to handle yourself in public. (that and i can already speak fluent conversations with my teacher, who is full-japanese herself) so its a complete waste of time. come on now. how hard is it? not very. watashi wa nihongo o hanashimasu. see? i speak japanese. in fact, thats what i just said.

I went to the mall with my boyfriend, Brandon yesterday. Our mall here is wicked boring. nothing to do. AT ALL. blech. sucky-moto. ^__^ but we were so cute, walking down the mall strip, with our hands in each other's back pockets. ^__^

I watched the invader zim dvd again today. i love those little tacos. i love them good. ^__^ 0_o yep yep.

In case of fire, scream and run frantically.


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:: 2005 26 January :: 3.42 pm
:: Mood: cheerful

I'll Just Dive Right in, and Pretend Like I Know What I'm Doing...
So, I'll get past all the, "I'm new! Ahhh! The lights are so bright! Help!" sort of stuff. I'm already starting to get the hang of it. Its extremely user-friendly. Which I like.

Well, today I bought the School House rock Collection on video. I love School House Rock. My friends think im a loser.

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:: 2005 24 January :: 7.12 pm
:: Mood: curious

I'm new. so bear with me.
Seems okay. I'll give it a shot. but not half bad, i'll admit. glad i got an invite. really glad. actually it sounds so exclusive, i actually felt special for once. ^__^ happy inside. yeh, i'll update later when im more used to this stuff and have more familiartiy with the site.


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