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2003 9 October :: 4.03pm
:: Mood: angry
:: Music: me, brittney, austin, n wilson singin "shake ya tailfeather"
I jus wanted to say dat brittany YES IT IS MY FAULT! I mean sersiously i had to have done soemthing fo her to hate me so much ya know i mean u dont jus hate someone fo no reason at all... i dunno wat i did but maybe it was jus da fact dat i was born, yah dats prolly it since im a mistake child anyway...and i didnt jus say dat she told me dat...urgh i dunno fuck it i dont even care neways ttyl babe bye!
P.s. Austin n Brittney say hey brittany! hehe
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liljilly07
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2003 9 October :: 6.30am
:: Mood: rejected
Omg dis is really shitty, okay this girl dat used to be my friend DAT AINT MY FRIEND anymore like okay well she was talkin to my mom on da phone {which after a while iw as okay wit} but like now omg t nite shes comin ova so dat her and my mom can TALK! Omfg my mom is too sick jus sooo sick dat she cant even talk wit me and she dont want me to friggin even go into her room, but dis girl dat she barely knows is comin ova and thier going to talk or wateva da hell!! Urgh dat really fuckin pisses me off, ex when my mom was being sucha bitch to me yesterday! I dont think its very fair! Its my mom shes surposed to eb there fo me when my bf breaks up wit me or when my best friend and i get into a fite or when i moved skools or whens omething bad happened to me! But no shes never been there fo anything of dat crap...shes never kissed me goodnite shes never read me a story good nite, shes never tucked me in, shes never helped me wit my hw, shes never gone to anything really fo skool, she didnt even come to any of my b ball games! When i was in 5th-6th-&8th NONE! She dont care bout me but she cares bout brittney!
I find dat pretty rude, n dats part of da reason why im so D*e*p*r*e*s*s*e*d* all da time...lol not depressed but sad!
Latah everyone!
Love always,
~*Jilly*~
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ducky
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2003 8 October :: 11.42pm
i either jus completly ruinened everything.
or completly made everything okay.
i was gonna just break up with kevin.
i was jus gonna freakin do it.
i has everything i was gonna say i even had emily on the phone pumping me up ..and i just froze and shes jus like omg u baby hes dumped u what 3 times and all this stuff that should have made me DO IT and jus like hate him forever ni couldnt, and it got me thinkin does that make me a huge wuss? or just does that mean i really love him?? i have no idea but what i do know if i need to study for history. and spanish. o god. and im so confused god damn..i love him and i hate him and god dang i sound stupid. But then t heres Joe. n there Tyler. and theres the fact that i jus made it so i can't break up with him for a raelly long time without going down in history as the worlds lowest selfish bitch. i couldnt jus done it completly guilt free. But he has to know everything bout me. And we had to have that whole thing saying im not going to..
ahhhh fuck.
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liljilly07
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2003 8 October :: 6.17am
:: Mood: confused
Urgh last nite was really shitty, i didnt get a wink of sleep at all...i jus sat up all nite long crying, Brittany is all mad at me and stacey wont even talk to me at all, and Sidnee is mad at me too, but not as bad as those 2 r. Stacey is mad at me cuz like today we had like da best day ever! We talked bout alotta stuff and she told me alotta stuff and i told her alotta stuff and it was great seh was being sucha sweetheart and so caring and everything and den brittany gets bak online, and like yah i had somehting bout stacey in my info so she got mad so i put soemthing bout britt in my info and stacey got mad...and dats really stupid if u ask me! Its jus a friggin info fo christs sake!!
P.s. Brittany I wasnt rubbin nothing in ur face ya ass! I would rather be best friends wit you ova anyone else in dis whole world! Yah Stacey means alot to me but she means nothing to me compared to you! You mean EVERYTHING to me! I luv u more den anything! YOU ARE MY BEST FRIEND! And ya know wat i dont even care if u have other best friends anymore, go rite ahead, but i jus know dat theres soemthing special about "us" and da way we feel fo eachtoehr {man dat sounds gay} is special from everyone else! So im okay wit u and court im okay wit you and Emily, and kevin and chelsie and missy and amber and ian and whoever da hell else your best friends with! Im OKAY wit dat fo now on, cuz ya know youve got a life too, and i cant always be your center of attention...it was good while it lasted...but its ova so im okay wit dat! Neways ive really gotta go so LUV YOU LOTS! latah!
Love always,
~*Jilly*~
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2003 7 October :: 10.50pm
So today was okay. Confusing, but okay. Kevins not who i thought he was. Neither is Jill, or Emily. Courtney isn't either. I seem to have too high of hopes cuz everyone is letting me down.
I jus <3 Tyler..hes so much funn. He can always make me laugh..i love that.
thas all i got to say
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2003 7 October :: 3.30pm
:: Mood: happy
WOo HOo! :-D heh
Well t day was actually an okay day...till i got home, but dats a diff story but neways at skool i had so much fun, like wit first hour me and Liz n Judy n Steffanie omg we had a blast cuz we had a sub! It was GREAT! I luv steffanie shes always there fo me when i need her, shes great! Newho den in Gym we like had to do an 800 {2 times round da track} n da girls goal time fo an A was 3 30 and i made it in 3 21 WOo HOo! Oh yah babey dat was sweet...but theres no way in hell im gonna beat dat next time lol, neways yah den i was on Josh n Johns team so i was really happy and we won da game! Oh yah were awesome {we were playin football} And den like in 3rd hour we had alotta fun too, it was freshmen trans wit dat one teacher Mr. Woodruff my fav teacher so far dis year ya know...well yah like ive always thought to myself..."Now this is going to be one teacher dat when i look bak on my highskool years, when im graduating, this is going to be one of the teachers dat really tought me something, not jus bout studying and skool but about life." And den t day {dis activity is going to sound odd but okay} yah we had to tape a paper on our baks and like walk around da room and have everyone say one true thing bout us and like theyd write on our sheet and like we'd write on thiers and like yah everyone had to do everyones and it was so awesome i got like all these really sweet replies on mine...Like from Jermey:Your really cute, n sweet. Like Ashley:Your awesome at basketball, n i luv you fo jus being you. LIke Marci: I luv you girl, your a great friend and a great b balla, good luck with everything. And da best one like Mr. Woodruffs: Your a great student, even though you dont try as hard as you sould, you have alot of ambition in life and i think that you sould take full advantage of that. You will be something great in life, i can already tell that. Your a leader and dats wat iluv in highskool students. I hope dat you still want to join me on da newspaper next year i know that you would be great. Have a great day! Awwe lol i thought it was really sweet! hehe but yah we werent allowed to look at em until after class was ova so dat kinda stunk but yah oh well...and like during lunch there was another fight and it was between Zach n Joe and it was funny hahaha but yah had a great time at lunch wit cassie cassie n Tiffany...{urgh tiffany is a fuckin dyke} But yah den during fourth hour german i had a great time wit dis Junior dat ive been becoming friends wit shes really really awesome n we've been becomin good friends. Lol we had a great time, but we always do cuz were such "wild n crazy kids" as mr bowen calls us lol...neways i dont hav emuch to say so ill jus stop rite here Latah.
Love always,
~*Jilly*~
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ducky
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2003 6 October :: 11.17pm
:: Mood: stupid
dum people
i dont know whats going on with anyone.
kevin is being really stupid. i dont know what his problem is. he doesnt even act like my freaking boyfriend. he acts like hes some little kid with a crush on me. i dont get it. other times it feels like were in a long term relationship. me, kevin, and emily. jesus they talk more then we do, and he has to talk through her to get to me. and i know she still likes him, its just stupid.
emily is acting stupid too.. well i covered some of that ^ there but also jesum shes going after all the wrong guys, not only kev but james too..him and marissa have been going out for a while and i cant believe shes doing this gawd dang..
but oother then that everything is pretty good..sept that jill is like madd/ sadd/ or something at me..what else is new
i love yew ryan u totally brightened up my day
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liljilly07
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2003 6 October :: 9.26pm
:: Mood: jealous
:: Music: Why cant I---Liz Phair
of course Brittany...
I dont know whas going on anymore, everything seems to be going wrong! Like everything really...even things wit brittany really, i dont really know. I really wanna talk wit her and tell her how im feeling, but she always takes it da wrong way, and gets all mad at me! I dont know its weird, shes got dis new friend, Emily and like ever since shes been like talkin bout her n everything, like shes been being alot more rude to me! I dont know maybe dats cuz shes finally startin to get sick of like how ive been treatin her, and she cant say dat lately i havent been treatin her like crap cuz really i have been treatin her like really bad lately...but i dont really know why...wait actually i do i do...and here ill make dis one real clear so there aint no mix ups...
IM JEALOUS OF HER AND DIS BITCHY EMILY GIRL!
There is dat understandably enough? Neways i dont have anything to say jus thought id write something latah...
Love always,
~*Jilly*~
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2003 6 October :: 9.09pm
:: Mood: hopeful
:: Music: Brand New
monday..
Well...today was okay i guess. I miss courtney. Really Really alott. Im thinking of letting some more people read this thing..i donno though..so far its jus Jilly readin it and some people i met through woohu..cuz Jill is really the only person i trust as of now. I don't want to go to school tomarrow. We didnt have school today thought :) Yippie. I didn't do that much..me and emily went to subway. So i got to say "its okay...I HAD SUBWAY!" all day long..lol. We Saw Alex. Love that kidd. I really hope that tomarrow goes good. I cannot handle another bad week, or another bad day for that matter. You can always tell if its gonna be a bad week from the first day..wait not always, almost always..there we go. Kevin got switched into my history class...im so lame lately i have nothing to say..i'll leave you alone.
<33 brittany
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liljilly07
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2003 5 October :: 10.59am
:: Mood: sad
mmm...?
One of these days things will be better fo da two of us, i promise. One of these days, really they will, we will be the best of friends, we will never fight, unless about something stupid that doesnt mean anything about anything, we will always be there for eachother, we will alwyas talk, and everything will be alright...
One of these days everything will change, i promise...one of these days im going to be a better friend, im going to never argue with you, unless its neccasary, one of these days im going to be the best that i can be fo you, jus because i luv you!
I luv you and i want to be there fo you, i want to be never argue wit you, i want to be da best friend dat i can be for you, i want to be ur best friend..
One of these days...
Love always,
~*Jillerz*~
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