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7 27 October :: 9.04pm
:: Mood: ecstatic
:: Music: Our Song-Taylor Swift
Oh Goodness...
I am so very bubbly right now. I love it. I deserve this. I really do. My cheeks still hurt but I can definately live with that. I am so happy.
Oh so very Bubbly.
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2007 24 October :: 11.39pm
:: Music: The Judds
Oh What am I To Do.................Brush My Teeth
I am still one happy cookie with homework up the wazoo and energy that is not being expended like it should be. Tommorow is another day and hopefully another one of smiling so much that my cheeks hurt. I have had a good five days of cheek hurting smiles.
I love it.
Throw your rock through my window...
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2007 24 October :: 12.04am
:: Mood: Fantastic
:: Music: Same song...I really like it
MMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM
MMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM
MMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM
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MMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM
MMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM
MMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMMM
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MMMMMMMM...Olive Cheese.
What a great way to end my night.
Throw your rock through my window...
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2007 18 October :: 9.30am
:: Mood: seductive/tired
Change is good. But how much change and I willing to do before I say it is enough. Not too much more I suppose. I dont have much to change. Just little things about myself that piss people off but I cant help that. That situation is something that everybody has to work around. Eventually it will become a learned fact of what not to do when I am pissed off. Your best bet is to leave alone unless I look unto you for support or guidence but otherwise dont bother.
What about me drives you crazy?
I should move the horses back down to the barn. I dont like them being out in the pasture without shelter. The only problem is that their pasture is saturated with water and I dont want them standing in it. So basically it is a lose-lose situation. I dont want the horses be outside without shelter but I dont want to move them back to the barn and deal with hoof absesses. I suppose I should just go with the latter of the two. I would rather have a hoof absess than not have them at all. They are so fricken cute though. I love to snuggle with them. We miss each other. They may come running when I call but I know it is for more than just the carrots that I have in my hand. I am sure of it. But they do love me. Even Sierra. She is just a snuggler. Kind of dingbat sometimes but for the most part she is pretty cool. I am glad we decided to keep her. She is going to make and amazing horse when I get my butt going and keep her on a training schedule. Next spring is the big break. I will get Sierra going to start training her with the cows. I will keep Pete in the best shape of his life for showing and trail riding. I want to do alot of that with him. Trail riding. Keep the showing to a minimum, just because it is hard on him. He loves to show and I will continue to show him. Just not as much. He seemed to get tired this year but we also showed almost every weekend too. My plan is to also get Johnny back in shape and just casually ride him. He feels so much better when he is in shape. I love it when he runs around and plays because he feels good.
Everything happens for a reason, I just wish I knew what that reason was sometimes.
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2007 10 October :: 7.08am
:: Mood: fidgety
:: Music: Sara Evan: As If
Interesting...
Petey ran a flawless Pole Bending pattern!!!! It was absolutely amazing. I wish it were captured on video because just riding him felt just incredible. He raced down there turned perfectly, had flawless flying lead changes and manged to keep him speen through the entire event. I can even begin to explain the rush of excitement I got. He may be old but damn he still has it. I felt like I was riding a professional rodeo horse. I dont know what that feel like but he was it if I knew. We ended up taking 7th or 8th in Pole Bending but that was in an open class out of 32 riders. Hot damn!! The rest of the day went well, we took home a 1st and a 3rd. Had issues before cloverleaf but we soon worked it out. Texas Flag would have been perfect but we missed the bucket. I so want to have another show just to feel that rush again.
I realized somthing when I went for my walk after my run:
Perfection has been standing right in front of me, What I have wanted for so long has always been there and I found what I was looking for when I never even bothered to look for it.
How strange to think that everything falls in to place even when we believe that everything is falling apart.
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2007 27 September :: 10.45pm
:: Mood: nervous
:: Music: Classical
A bathe.
The one thing I never take because of time restrictions. Well I am making time for it tonight.
I deserve one.
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2007 26 September :: 3.00pm
:: Mood: Elated
Perfect.
Absolutely perfect.
Throw your rock through my window...
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2007 24 September :: 1.23am
May there always be work for your hands to do;
May your purse always hold a coin or two;
May the sun always shine on your windowpane;
May a rainbow be certain to follow each rain;
May the hand of a friend always be near you;
May God fill your heart with gladness to cheer you.
Throw your rock through my window...
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2007 20 September :: 11.49pm
A raindrop is perfect. He falls from his home of a cloud so dark, faster and faster he falls not knowing where he will go but anticipates his destination. For each moment that passes he is certian there is a purpose for his exsistence but is unknowing of his fate.
Throw your rock through my window...
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2007 12 September :: 11.33pm
:: Mood: Terribly Sad
A Tribute To A Very Brave Boy...
I did everything in my power to make the last month and four days of your life a happy one. You were a real trooper throughout this whole ordeal. You took your medication like a champ and you were fairly reasonable about bandaging. I knew you were in pain but you still listened to my requests. You were oh so very brave through all of this. You have your wings now. Forever you will run through grassy meadows and carrot patches laced with sweet feed. You are a very brave boy Socks and I love you very much.
Sweet Dreams Sockman
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2007 6 September :: 12.50am
:: Mood: energetic
Seriously...
I have my work definately cut out for me this semester but it is so worth it if I can learn small phrases in German and not have anybody understand what I am saying. I am so excited!!!! I'm only kidding. But seriously that would be awesome. This semester I managed to aquire a sixteen credit load that consists of Sociology, Survey of Calculus, Biology and of course my favorite out of this whole entourage, German.
Anyways, besides my boring and most certainly uneventful college course schedule, my horses are extremely lucky that I love them ever so much. Last night they broke through the fence, then this morning, then tonight. Last night was ok because it was an easy fix, no harm done. This morning on the other hand really irritated me. Class was scheduled to start in an hour and I hadnt been down to see Socks yet and actually looked like a girl, but thats beside the point, and all of the sudden I hear Johnny screaming, in my opinion, and I looked out and the other two horses were nowhere to be found so I go out and look and here comes Pete and Sierra just casually walking down the road coming back from the barn as if they had to do some sort of inspection to ensure that everything was in working order down there. Luckily I had grain in a bucket for Socks, so I shook it a bit and they came running and followed me out to the pasture. I did a make shift fix on the fence and mind you that I am still in my school clothes that make me look like an actual girl. So now my hair is not straight anymore and at that point I didnt really care but that is also beside the point. I actually thought my hair looked pretty nifty because it had that wild messy look but looked seductive pulled back loosely. I will just admit it, I looked hot today!!!! Also beside the point. So anyways, the horses get out again tonight when I get home, actually they were out before that and my phone is broken so I didnt get the numerous messages left by my mother, and I fixed their fence again, hopefully it holds this time. So at 1:00am I am energetic and quite disappointed I was unable to run. Maybe I will do it in the morning. We will see.
I dont really like him, I just like to talk about him alot. I found it quite coincidental that he was exactly were I was at the time I decided to be where I was this afternoon. Of all of the trillions, no make that gazillions, of students on campus, how is it that he happens to be the one that I run in to. Seriously. It just amazes me. Then to top it off we hung out for an hour or so and he was begining to be riduculous, also beside the point. But I mean seriously, how does that work? I enjoyed the time I spent with him but seriously. What makes me wonder even more is that within the first 10 minutes or so I was going to leave and get my German book and he didnt want me to go. It just makes me wonder. Like I said before I dont really like him, I just like to talk about him alot.
So with that out of my system:
Auf Wiederschen!
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2007 28 August :: 1.35am
:: Mood: energetic
:: Music: Just me humming strange tunes in my head
I should have seen it coming...I just didnt want to
I seem to have myself stuck between a rock and a hard place. Well maybe not really but sometimes it feels that way. I am not over heels for him anymore, not like I used to be at least but I find myself more and more thinking about him. Sometimes it feels as though something is really there and not just by my account by I get a vibe from him and within minutes or maybe even over the course of the day the sense will just fad into normality which is boring and uneventful. Sometimes I wonder if he just tries to stay distant from me because he doesnt want to see something evolve. I dont know but it was worth a thought.
Another thing that really pisses me off and has become quite the trend is not recieving a phone call back from two specific people in particular. Let me just put it out there, when someone calls somebody else it is common courtesy to return there phone call just to be polite. I am so fucking sick of putting forth an effort where it seems there is a wall. I am tired of being the only one who ever seems to care. I know I fucked up. I know that chances of making it work were slim to none but I was willing to take that slim chance that it might work. I suppose it was just a waste of time from the begining the second time around. I just wish you would of told me that before you decided to drop me off and never bother look back and try to pick up the pieces. But whatever 'lifes a dance you learn as you go.'
But do not worry there is hope for me yet. We will see where this one takes me.
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2007 9 August :: 12.04am
:: Mood: content
Everything is not what it seems...
actually love the life that I live. At times it can be chaotic, an emotional roller coaster, and down right annoying but I love every minute of it.
Nutshell:
I work three jobs, train two to three horses every week, workout, and volunteer with a local veterinarian. During the day if I am not working at the feed mill or riding along with the veterinarian, I am training horses. In the evening I am either milking cows or working at H2. My only saving grace is when I have a horse show, then I do not work anywhere and simply enjoying the short lived time off with the horses. Starting in less than a month I will be begining my second year of college with a sixteen credit load, all while continuing to work three jobs. Unfortunately I will have to stop volunteering with the veterinarian simply for the lack of time and I will be unable to work the horses as frequently due to the same motive. However, I recently took on a new project. I acquried a new horse with a serious injury that will take months to heal with the possibility that he will have to be euthenized if infection occurs.
That is my life in a nutshell. Details are not important other than the horse.
But cest la vie
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2007 13 July :: 2.18pm
:: Mood: sleepy
Everything happens the way that it does for a reason.
Instead of wondering why my life seems to be on the edge of chaos all the time, I have decided to except the way things are because I know that without the sequential order of events my life wouldnt exsist as it does now.
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2007 10 July :: 9.44am
:: Mood: Alright
:: Music: Randy Travis
Life is... Alright
Life has been busy. This is the first time that I have actually been able to sit down and enjoy a few minutes to myself.
In a nutshell, I have taken on another job which is milking cows. I do this when I dont work at the feed mill or at HH. During the day, before I go to the dairy barn, I work three horses. One is the "one and only Petey", the second is my brothers horse Sierra and then third is my beighbors horse Zeke. Pete is easy to work with because I simply just trail ride him on the roads to keep him in shape for shows. Sierra is quite the opposite. I have to work her in the arena for 20 to 40 minutes at a time working on transition changes, responding to cues, and mucsle building. Zeke is just nervous overweight horse who is staring to look amazing. I love working with all of them.
Or if there are appointments scheduled then I ride with a local veterinarin and then go work at at the dairy barn or HH. I love it!!!!
My garden is growing and I really need to get a planner.
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