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:: 2006 17 January :: 10.50pm

That kid is great and he deserves people to give him a chance.

Why do people judge on looks all of the time?
Try to understand a person for once.

I'm just pissed and surprised.

Ya know what? He's an awesome kid. And I'm sorry that you don't see that. Just because someone isn't like you doesn't mean that there's something wrong with them. It means they're different and that's it.

I'm so fed up with all these people. Just, grow the fuck up. Being shallow will get you no where.

Ughh.. I don't even know. Nothing I say can express how entirely mad I am. Just.. change how you look at people. CHANGE. No, you're not perfect.

You're far from it.

Edit>> No, RON I am NOT talking about a retard or deformed person. He's normal!


:: 2006 17 January :: 12.57pm

I love YOU freezing rain.

Having the day off is nice, but I am awfully bored. It's quite all right though, I'll take a day of boredom to have a three day week.

When will we sing a new song, a new song? We're all asking the same damn question, POD. You suck and all your music sounds the same.

Bah. I can't wait for this year to be over. One more semester. I can't believe it. I'm a senior! Crazy. I really wish I could figure out what I am doing after High School though.

I'll get it.

Econ better be my only class with exams this week or I'm gonna have to kill a bitch.

2 Lover's | Star struck


:: 2006 16 January :: 1.00am
:: Music: Pink Floyd - Hey You

I have decided that Big Nasty is easily the coolest person on this earth.
I mean he fucking turned his room mates room into a bike course and has bike races. How does that not make you cool? I want to live with that kid for the rest of my life. Not because I have some crush on him or any shit like that, I just love to hear him talk, haha.

Anyway, this weekend was awesome, yet incredibly lame at the same time.

The laser light show was cool.

I am sick and I need sleep. I hope it's not the plague.

I miss you, Ashley! Get better soon, my dear.

Night assholes.

Star struck


:: 2006 14 January :: 1.12pm
:: Music: Pink Floyd

Nothing interesting.
I'm going to Spring Hill. So, let me know if you're going and if you know anyone else that is. It doesn't really matter, I'm just curious.

Anyway.. I am excited for the laser light show tonight. I've never been to one, I hope it's cool.

Edit>> If you got senior pictures, I'd like one pleeeaassee. Even if we're not like really good friends. People tend to forget to give me a picture. *angry face

6 Lover's | Star struck


:: 2006 13 January :: 10.07pm

Tonight was fun.
I hung out with Sammie, Leah, and Courtany. We met up with a bunch of random guys I didn't know. It was pretty damn awkward, because they were all churchy and the girls there like hated us. But, Tim was cool. Like.. yeah.. I want to get to know Tim.. hahaha. Yeah.. let's just leave it at that. Ok, he's SEXY. I said it. There.

Anyway, I like hanging out with old friends and getting to know new people. It's so crazy how I seem to make new friends every week. I love it. I'm sad that it wasn't like this sooner.

Mishy.. it BETTER have been me. Cross your fingers for me, ahaha. Maybe we can watch Batman Begins and HIYA sometime. :)

Tomorrow is gonna be fun.

I really need to figure myself out.

2 Lover's | Star struck


:: 2006 12 January :: 3.42pm

Blah, blah, BLAH.
Wow. Talk about egos.

You all need to get over yourselves. Honestly.
It's all highschool politics. Nothing's ever fair.
And that is that.

As for you. I can name at least ten people better than you right off the top of my head. You suck. But, just keep kissing up and being fake, it's cool.

It's so nice outside today. It's like spring.. but, I'm trying not to get too excited. It's supposed to snow Saturday.. :(

I can't wait for this weekend.
Pink Floyd and Big Nasty's. Can't get much better than that, haha.
Oh, and you're a bitch. =)

And JA Titan can go to hell! Actually.. I kind've enjoy it.. *winks

7 Lover's | Star struck


:: 2006 11 January :: 9.05pm

Only new classes:
1) Communications-Young
[Fuck yeah. Seeing his perdy face bright and early will make me get up every morning, for sure.]

Let me know if you're in either.

3 Lover's | Star struck


:: 2006 11 January :: 3.15pm

You're not funny, you're just an asshole.

Star struck


:: 2006 8 January :: 9.37pm

It's all in good fun, kids.

Read more..

11 Lover's | Star struck


:: 2006 6 January :: 10.49pm

I love this.

He's making me realize that I am not perfect and I have to get over myself. I mean.. like, I can't just dish things out and not take them back. He doesn't just let me say what I want and then be all sweet back. He's blunt. He's honest. He's militant. And I like it. I don't need some fake ass, lovey dovey attitude.

And it's not like he's an asshole to me. It's not that at all. He just isn't fake and doesn't let me get away with being a bitch without him being a dick back. It just works and I like it.

I don't care if I sound crazy. I am very lippy and I need someone to let me know it.

I can't wait for tomorrow.

7 Lover's | Star struck


:: 2006 5 January :: 9.42pm

Devin asked me out and...

I said no.
Now, don't get any ideas. It was handled well and I had my reasons. I told him we need to hang out a few more times and when he knows, and I mean really knows, he can ask me in person.

I want things to go right with all of this.
And I want to be entirely honest with him.
He completely understood and thought it was for the best.
He said he didn't even want to ask me this way, he just felt like he had to and couldn't wait.
I understand completely, because I feel like I want to be with him as well. But, I know it's not smart for either of us right now.

We'll see what happens.
He's so great and I want things to go perfectly and to last. I don't want some lame one month thing.
So, in the end handling it how I did was a very good idea.
I don't want to lose this kid and I won't. Whether we date or stay friends, I want him there. And he will be.

With all that said, goodnight.
I am so glad tomorrow is Friday.

6 Lover's | Star struck


:: 2006 4 January :: 9.11pm


Devin: You hate me apparently..
Stacy: I didn't say that!
Devin: Stacy: Ew, no I hate you!
Stacy: Hahaha.
Devin: Got you there!
Stacy: Yeah, pretty much.


1 Lover | Star struck


:: 2006 4 January :: 3.26pm

Awe, Mikey (Brad's cousin) got me a printer for Christmas! He ordered one offline and got it sent to my house (it's a Canon and it's so nice!) I got home and there was this huge box on my bed, haha.

It's such a thoughtful gift. He knows I want to be a photographer and I take most of my pictures digitally so he wanted to get me a nice printer for making a portfolio (to eventually get a job in the photography field). I can't wait to use it.

I am just so excited. Thanks Mikey! It's nice to know at least one person from that family doesn't hate me.

I love how unselfish some people are. He doesn't even want anything back, except some of the pictures I've taken. :)

2 Lover's | Star struck


:: 2006 3 January :: 9.10pm

He got me gummy worms. Oh yeah, that shows he cares. You'd understand if you knew how I felt about sour gummy worms. I think he just didn't want to die.

I love how he's always laughing and smiling. He just puts me in a constant good mood. It's like he can't be cranky. Awe man, I miss him all ready.

I'm so lame.

10 Lover's | Star struck


:: 2006 2 January :: 9.43pm

Awe, he told me that he likes me.
And that the entire night he wanted to kiss me, but he was afraid.

I feel like I'm in 8th grade again and I like it. Haha.

I love when things begin to start. It's scary, but I love it.

I'm excited in the dorkiest way. :)


:: 2006 1 January :: 10.54am

This is the new year and I don't feel any different.
New Years was awesome for me. Nothing exciting happened. I didn't watch the ball drop, I didn't get a new years kiss, I didn't even know it was the new year until two minutes later. But, that simplicity and it being treated like any normal day made it so special to me.

Lisa picked me up, we went to Skelletones (Aw, man.. I love that place), we met Devin there, watched a few bands, left, went to some lame party, left, drove around aimlessly then went to James's house to hang out and just watch movies for the night. We played 'Go Fish' too! I didn't know/remember how to play, so Devin taught me. Haha.

Devin is just...amazing. I've never instantly been so comfortable around someone. Nothing is awkward. It's like I have been this kids best friend for years. We talk all the time about everything. Serious things, past relationships, or about stupid shit that doesn't even matter. He makes me laugh so hard and I do the same for him. I love how he is so real and raw. He just says exactly what he's thinking, he's kind've... sassy in a way. And that's a bad word to describe a guy, but you get the point. He just won't sit back and not say what he thinks. I like how open he is. He'll just spill his heart out about the low times in his life and you can tell he doesn't feel embarrased about them. And it's not in this whiny way. It's in this real, 'This happened, I felt like this. So what? Take it or leave it' kinda way. And I love that. I need someone to just say something and not care if it sounds wrong. I have yet to sleep. We stayed up all night into the day just talking. It was never weird, we always had something to say or something to laugh about. It honeslty, like..hurt both of us to have to go home today.

The only thing that scares me is he is seriously such a nice guy. I feel like I can end up hurting someone like him. He won't talk bad about people unless he's joking. He actually sticks up for people and will tell the people talking shit that it's not cool. He honestly gets pissed off when people talk bad about others. I think that's awesome and it's nice to be around someone like that, maybe he can help me quit that habit.

He's also very well rounded. He's never stolen and doesn't ever want to. He doesn't smoke, because he thinks it's a disgusting habit, he has only gotten drunk four times in his life and doesn't plan on drinking ever again (He had to go to the hospital the last time he got drunk from alcohol poisoning. He almost died and that scared him, so he doesn't want to drink like that again.), he's smoked pot and is also done with that, because he wants to get a good job and just doesn't care about it. He was just talking about how he went through the stages he needed to and he doesn't have the urge to do those things anymore. And I could see that he was telling the truth, not just telling me things I wanted to hear. He's also very intelligent, you can tell by his vocabulary and the classes he is taking.

The best part of everything about him is...he's a virgin. Can you believe that?! Honestly, I can't believe it. I like that he is basically on the same level as I am in that area. You don't just find guys who haven't had sex around anymore. And it makes no sense. For the way he looks and acts girls should honeslty be throwing themselves at him. Seriously. He's extremely easy on the eyes.

I am a lot more mature than he is, but he's a year younger and a Junior so it makes sense. A year really changes a person. One year can make a person grow up in athousand ways. He's not perfect, which makes everything even better. He can drive me up the wall within seconds, but then just make me laugh it off a minute later.

I couldn't have asked for a better way to start off the year.

I don't know about all of this. Right now we're just friends. Close friends who are really comfortable with eachother and will spend any day they have to hang out to do nothing, yet enjoy every second of it. He even told me how he missed his ex girl friend and he wanted to be with her again. But, then he hinted a lot to me by asking questions about how picky I am with guys, if age matters, what annoys me about him, if I think he's cool, etc. etc. He asked a lot of questions that tip toed around us eventually dating or finding out if I liked him. We could end up dating (eventually), but I don't want to be serious with anyone until I get out of Highschool and expeirence a little more of my life. I don't even want to date him right now, I just want to be really good friends with him and enjoy his wonderful company.

It was so darn cute...he got up on stage and skanked at Skelletones. He looked sooo cute, seriously. He can actually skank right, so that was cool to see. I love how he always just lets go and has a good time.

Then he ate the last red and blue sour gummy worm! I told him not to eat any of those ones, because those were the only ones I liked and he ate them anyway! Then he laughed at me.

So, I killed him.

6 Lover's | Star struck


:: 2005 31 December :: 3.28pm
:: Music: Rilo Kiley

I can't wait for tonight.

I'm starting to get bored and when I get bored I get sad. When I get sad I kill people. When I kill people I go to jail. When I go to jail I sneak out. When I sneak out out I hide. When I hide I go crazy. After I go crazy I watch TV. When I watch TV I get tired. When I get tired I get bored. When I get bored I get sad. When I get sad I kill people.. and well, you see? The process just starts itself all over again.

So, let's go out tonight and hope I don't get bored.

1 Lover | Star struck


:: 2005 30 December :: 9.36pm

Everybody looks like ants!
Ron and I watching Family Guy:

Icicle shards says:
Relentless says:
Icicle shards says:
Relentless says:

[Repeat that about ten times]

Man, I love that show. And boy, do I love sour worms. I ate all of them, Ron. Now I feel sick, but it was worth it.

6 Lover's | Star struck


:: 2005 30 December :: 1.56am

Dacon is bangerous.
Tonight was fun. Hung out with Ashley, Dani, Ryan, Tyler, Big Nasty, my bro, Shane, and Dan. (I am naming people in my entries lately so I can remember whenever I read through this. It's for my own benefit, so ignore it.). We hung out at Dani's house for a while, then went to IHOP. I hate that place with a passion, but the group made it fun. Those kids were hilarious. I love being around fun people. And I love to laugh. It's so nice.

I can't wait for new years. :) It shall be a good time.

Edit>> I know I am updating a lot lately about pretty much the same things. This journal is becoming more of a thing for me to read and look back on memories. I know who I hung out with and what I did doesn't matter to you, but it matters to me. And it is my journal after all. So, if it's annoying... "like be a big person and get over." Haha, only a select few will get that one.

3 Lover's | Star struck


:: 2005 29 December :: 6.54pm
:: Music: Rent Soundtrack - Rent

Going out once again. I'm tired and grouchy and I wouldn't have it any other way, because of the reasons I am. That makes no sense to you, but it does to me. So, fuck off.

For break starting off so completely terrible, it seems to be ending well.

Who would of thought I could actually be happy and stay happy?
What the hell is this?

It's well deserved.

5 Lover's | Star struck


:: 2005 29 December :: 12.07am

I love my friends so much. You guys crack me the fuck up.
But, seriously..without friends like the ones I have I'd be a wreck all of the time.

Thanks for being there.
I can't wait to dance on our party bus! ;)

I really need sleep. Going on two days without it, but I've hit the point where I am so tired I have crazy energy. Eventually I just have to fall asleep. Right?

5 Lover's | Star struck


:: 2005 28 December :: 7.55pm
:: Music: Rent Soundtrack - Love Heals

Big Nasty rocks my world.
Well, I just got done hanging out with Devin. There's just something about that kid. He's really...I don't even know. Just interesting and different. And I like it. Don't get me wrong now kittens. We're just friends and nothing's going to be rushed. I just think he's cool and I'm glad I'm getting to know him.

I have still yet to sleep and I won't be sleeping until probably tomorrow 'cause I'm hanging out with Jess, Erika, Heather, and Brandi tonight. But, I don't mind.. I love those bitches.

Ashley: I need to talk to you! It's nothing important so don't get exctied. I just have to ask you a question. Ok, little spears? Hehe.

Anyway, life is good right now. Really good and I am so happy.

8 Lover's | Star struck


:: 2005 28 December :: 10.57am
:: Music: Rent Soundtrack

Last night was so much fun. I love you Ashley, Dani, Mishy, and Brittani. Oh, and Devin & Ben (BIG NASTY) as well, haha. We just stayed out all night driving around, going to coffee shops, and just hanging out. It was so great. I'm running on about an hour of sleep (or less), but I don't care. I'll be leaving to hang out downtown in about two hours anyway. I don't know why I'm talking about this. It's just.. I was really happy last night. Everything was just nice and we all had so much fun and got along instantly. I didn't really like Devin the first time I met him, well more of how he was online, but he's actually a really cool kid. And what Mishy and I talked about is true. He's a junior, give him a year and a lot of things will change.

I need to learn to give people a chance.
And I will.

We all need to hang out again, soon.

Now I'm sad that break will be over in like a week.. :(
Let's all just pretend we had no idea and never go back to school. Sound good? Hey, if we all do it, it could just work. Just gotta have faith!

Anyway, yeah.. shower..food..sleep.

4 Lover's | Star struck


:: 2005 27 December :: 9.58am

I think I'm actually happy. Honestly.

Of course I'm gonna have my bad moments where I feel lonely, but being single right now is good.

Highschool relationships are usually bullshit anyway. Even if people say they aren't, they are. I only know of two couples that I think are actually good.

I like that I can do what I want. I can go to a party if I want to. I can hang out with guys. I can ask for a guys numbers if I think he's cool. I can call guys and talk. I can just do what I want without asking if it's ok and that feels so good.

I want to date at the age when it will be a mature, adult relationship and the goal will be marriage, not getting laid. It seems pointless to me to date when the goal isn't being together forever. Sometimes it's just a time kill for people. Or just so they won't be alone. Maybe they're in love with someone else, so they trick themselves into thinking the new person is great, which he may be.. but, you're still thinking about the other guy. Whatever it is...it's bullshit.

And I can say right now I have not had one mature relationship in my life. In one we fought too much about stupid shit that didn't matter at all. The other he quit on me because I "couldn't see him enough" the other one.. he had no back bone, another one.. well he was just a moron. Etc. But, everything was just weak and no one tried to fix a problem that was barely even a problem at all.

Now, don't get me wrong. I'm not bashing people who date in highschool. I'm just saying for me, it's not right, right now. And it shouldn't be the focus of my life. I can be happy without a meaningless guy by my side.

I can't believe I begged for him to stay. What the hell? Right now, I've never felt so good to get rid of someone so bad.

4 Lover's | Star struck


:: 2005 26 December :: 6.33pm
:: Music: Rent Soundtrack - Seasons of Love

Ya know what? I don't feel bad for Naomi Watts. I would gladly accept being chased by like 8 dinosaurs, having giant bugs on my face, and being swung in a gorillas hand for an hour if I could end up being with Adrien Brody. She's lucky. Stop crying, bitch.. you have Adrien. Who cares about the God damn gorilla?!

Juuust kidding. It was a really sad movie, but good. Very good actors/actresses in it.

Oh, and when I said, "Juuuust kidding." I didn't mean I wouldn't do anything to be with Adrien. I would. :)

I returned my Mp3 player, it sucked. But, it's all good because my mom just let me spend the money and she's going to buy me a nice one later on. :) I got the Rent Soundtrack, Blow [DVD], The Pianist [DVD], The Dukes of Hazzard [DVD], Bob Dylan Chronicles VI [Book], and a Bob Dylan 1956-1966 Scrapbook.

Today was good. How was your day?

6 Lover's | Star struck

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