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:: 2007 2 September :: 7.28 pm
:: Mood: Stressed
:: Music: In Pieces - Linkin Paek

In Pieces
There is a flaw with this song. Does no one ever feel for the person on the other side of the lyrics?. So I'm rewriting it for those of us who know how it feels.

Telling you to go
But hands beg you to stay
My lips say that I hate
My heart say that I love

There's truth in my lies
Doubt in my faith
What you build I lay to waste
There's truth in my lies
Doubt in my faith

All I've got's what you didn't take

So I, I will be the one
Be the one to leave this

In pieces

And I, I will be alone
Alone with all my secrets
And regrets
I've lied

I promised you the sky
Then tossed you like a stone
You wrap me in your arms
And I chill you to the bone

There's truth in my lies
Doubt in my faith

All I've got's what you didn't take

So I, I will be the one
Be the one to leave this

In pieces

And I, I will be alone
Alone with all my secrets
And regrets

I've lied

So I, I will be the one
Be the one to leave this

In pieces

And I, I will be alone
Alone with all my secrets
And regrets

I've lied

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:: 2007 22 June :: 5.40 pm
:: Mood: restless
:: Music: Yorokobi no Uta - KATTUN

Oh Good Lord
Ya know............when you start crying over a bloody pop song with bouncy cheerfulness and pretty guys...there is a problem o.o

I don't even have menopause to blame it on anymore...go me






Yay for mood swings

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:: 2007 22 June :: 1.11 am
:: Mood: indescribable
:: Music: I Play Music - Rosie Thomas

I Play Music, That's What I Do
Thanks to someone who shall remain nameless, not that they'll ever read this (thank you god), I feel the need to rant and break things quite often lately. Needless to say, I'll probably be around on woohu more for this period of bitchyness, If I annoy anyone, I apologize. Go me.

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:: 2007 22 June :: 1.01 am
:: Mood: indescribable
:: Music: Sell all my things - Rosie Thomas

Zippedy Doo Da
Level 1
( ) Smoked A Cigarette
( ) Smoked A Cigar
( ) Smoked Weed
(x) Kissed A Member Of The Same Sex
( ) Drank Alcohol


Level 2
(x) Are / Been In Love
(x) Been Dumped
(x) Shoplifted
( ) Been Fired
(x) Been In A Fist Fight


Level 3
( ) Snuck Out Of A Parent's House.
(x) Had Feelings For Someone Who Didn't Have Them Back
( ) Been Arrested
( ) Made Out With A Stranger
( ) Gone Out On A Blind Date


Level 4
(x) Had A Crush On An Older Person
( ) Skipped School
( ) Slept With A Co-worker
(x) Seen Someone / Something Die


Level 5
( ) Had / Have A Crush On One Of Your MYSPACE Friends
( ) Been To Paris
( ) Been To Spain
(x) Been On A Plane
( ) Thrown Up From Drinking


Level 6
(x) Eaten Sushi
( ) Been Snowboarding
( ) Met Someone BECAUSE Of Myspace
( ) Been in a mosh pit

SO FAR: 10

Level 7
( ) Been In An Abusive Relationship
(x) Taken Pain Killers
(x) Love(d) Someone Who You Can't Have
(x) Laid On Your Back And Watched Cloud Shapes Go By
(x) Made A Snow Angel

SO FAR: 14

Level 8
(x) Had A Tea Party
(x) Flown A Kite
(x) Built A Sand Castle
(x) Gone Puddle Jumping
(x) Played Dress Up

SO FAR: 19

Level 9
(x) Jumped Into A Pile Of Leaves
(x) Gone Sledding
(x) Cheated While Playing A Game
(x) Been Lonely
(x) Fallen Asleep At Work / School

SO FAR: 24

Level 10
( ) Used A Fake / Someone Else's ID
(x) Watched The Sun Set
(x) Felt An Earthquake
(x) Killed A Snake

SO FAR: 27

Level 11
(x) Been Tickled
(x) Been Robbed / Vandalized
(x) Robbed Someone
(x) Been Misunderstood
(x) Pet A Deer

SO FAR: 32

Level 12
(x) Won A Contest
( ) Been Suspended
( ) Had Detention
(x) Been In A Car / Motorcycle Accident

SO FAR: 34

Level 13
(x) Had / Have Braces
(x) eaten a whole pint of ice cream in one night
(x) had deja vu
( ) danced in the moonlight

SO FAR: 37

Level 14
(x) Hated The Way You Look
(x) Witnessed A Crime
( ) Pole Danced
(x) Questioned Your Heart
(x) Been obsessed with post-it-notes

SO FAR: 41

Level 15
(x) Squished Barefoot Through The Mud
(x) Been Lost
(x) Been To The Opposite Side Of The World
(x) Swam In The Ocean
(x) Felt Like You Were Dying

SO FAR: 46

Level 16
(x) Cried Yourself To Sleep
(x) Played Cops And Robbers
(x) Recently Colored With Crayons / Colored Pencils / Markers
( ) Sang Karaoke
(x) Paid For A Meal With Only Coins

SO FAR: 50

Level 17
(x) Done Something You Told Yourself You Wouldn't
(x) Made Prank Phone Calls
(x) Laughed Until Some Kind Of Beverage Came Out Of Your Nose
( ) Kissed In The Rain

SO FAR: 53

Level 18
(x) Written A Letter To Santa Claus
( ) Been Kissed Under A Mistletoe
( ) Watched The Sun Set With Someone You Care / Cared About
(x) Blown Bubbles
( ) Made A Bonfire On The Beach

SO FAR: 55

Level 19
( ) Crashed A Party
(x) Have Traveled More Than 5 Days With A Car Full Of People
(x) Gone Rollerskating / Blading
(x) Had A Wish Come True
( ) Been Humped By A Monkey

SO FAR: 58

Level 20
(x) Worn Pearls
( ) Jumped Off A Bridge
( ) Screamed "Penis" In Class
( )Swam With Dolphins

SO FAR: 59

Level 22
(x) Got Your Tongue Stuck To A Pole / Freezer/ice Cube
( ) Kissed A Fish
(x) Worn The Opposite Sex's Clothes
( ) Sat On A Roof Top

SO FAR: 61

Level 23
(x) Screamed At The Top Of Your Lungs
(x) Done / Attempted A One-Handed Cartwheel
( ) Talked On The Phone For More Than 6 Hours
(x) Stayed Up All Night

SO FAR: 64

Level 24
( ) Picked And Ate An Apple Right Off The Tree
(x) Climbed A Tree
(x) Had / Been In A Tree House
( ) Scared To Watch Scary Movies Alone

SO FAR: 66

Level 25
( ) Believe In Ghosts/spirits
( ) Have / Had More Then 30 Pairs Of Shoes
(x) Gone Streaking
( ) Jail/Visit

SO FAR: 67

Level 26
( ) Played Chicken
( ) Been Pushed Into A Pool With All Your Clothes On
(x) Been Told You're Hot By A Complete Stranger
(x) Broken A Bone
(x) Been Easily Amused

SO FAR: 70

Level 27
(x) Caught A Fish Then Ate It Later
( ) Made A Porn Video (Can I just say....umm, seriously? wtf!)
(x) Caught A Butterfly
(x) Laughed So Hard You Cried
(x) Cried So Hard You Laughed

SO FAR: 74

Level 28
(x) Mooned / Flashed Someone
(x) Had someone Moon / Flash You
(x) Cheated On A Test
(x) Forgotten Someone's Name
(x) Slept Naked
(x) French Braided Someones Hair
( ) Gone Skinny Dippin In A Pool
( ) Been Kicked Out Of Your House.

SO FAR: 80

Level 29
(x) Rode A Roller Coaster
( ) Went Scuba-Diving / Snorkeling
( ) Had A Cavity
(x) Black-Mailed Someone
(x) Been Black Mailed

SO FAR: 83

Level 31
(x) Been Used
(x) Fell Going Up The Stairs
( ) Licked A Cat
(x) Bitten Someone
(x) Licked Someone

SO FAR: 87

Level 32
( ) been shot at
( ) had sex in the rain / rainy night
(x) flattened someone tires
( ) Rode your car until the gas light came on
( ) got five dollars or less worth of gas

And a grand total of 88!

Sheesh, I've got like, 80 years left here people, I supposed to be done with my life by 30?

That being said. If there are any questions about some of my answers...I will deny everything

vehemently o.o

((Oh look, I updated, go me))

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:: 2007 15 February :: 9.58 pm

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:: 2006 30 November :: 6.45 pm
:: Mood: annoyed
:: Music: None

Well.....the votes have been cast
the results are in
and it's-
worthless broken puddle of tears

Oh hoorah........

or something like that

(thank god it only lasted a few hours)

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:: 2006 15 November :: 6.03 pm
:: Mood: listless
:: Music: JC Chasez - Dear Goodbye

My Poor Baby Naoe...*kicks Kagetura*
Mirage of blaze, Kat-Tun, and Saiyuki Reload own my soul....seriously.

Sanzo from Saiyuki Reload is my new replacement for snape (nothing could ever seriously replace snape..but still, sanzo...omg, he's like a Teh Blip version of snape, and waaaaaay cuter too.) How many -MONKS- have you met with a foul mouth, a complete "piss off" mental syndrome, lazy, conceited, and incredibly good at insulting people.

"Release information, story information, character biographies? We've
got that. Downloads and other assorted media? You
betcha. Your very own Banishing Gun, like the one sported
by everyone's favorite chain-smoking priest, Genjyo Sanzo?
We wish." Who else has websites like that? >. >

"Said to be a great and noble priest who travels the lands with
his three loyal followers, banishing demons and being the
epitome of piety. Well, it just goes to show you that the legend
is based a little more on fiction than fact. Genjyo Sanzo is a
hard-smoking, hard-drinking, no-nonsense kind of guy who
has no qualms about pulling his Banishing Gun on his friends
or enemies to maintain order amongst the group, and
throughout the land in which he travels. He's self-centered,
conceited, and not above treating his comrades like his
personal servants, as he relaxes quietly with a cup of tea and
the morning paper. Sometimes it just pays to be the leader."


I love him.

yeah >. >

Look at that face, XD
my anime obsession is beginning to scare even me......but hey, who cares! ^^ *cough*

And Naoe...last night, omg...I am so glad I am capable of containing my laughter, because rolling on the floor unable to breath at 1:30 a.m. would have been baaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaad. I love Mirage of Blaze..........completely Naoe is so completely unbalanced.."We could put you into the body of a woman, then you wouldn't mind sleeping with me!" (paraphrasing here) I thought I was going to die.........yes, I love you deeply Kagetura, even though you treat me like a dog and refuse to touch me...why I don't I just rape you instead! *falls out of her chair* (This will only make sense to people who have watched the series...I realize this...but omg...complete Naoe love....) *hisses at Kagetura* you are sooooooooooooo completely cruel and unworthy of Naoe's love....I mean sure, he tried to rape you...but it's your own goddamn I don't want -any- complaining..*coughs* >. > *pets poor Naoe* So abused and rejected..*cuddles* Who needs Kagetura anyways? >. > I mean, come on...look at that adorableness Meanie Kagetura...... LOOK at that face!!'s screaming "I'll die if you don't love me!" Poor Naoe...*pets* *sniffle*

Yeah....on to another subject........I take back every feminine thought I had about seriously.....a girl...Have you HEARD him scream? Seriously...omg He does actually manage to scream his head off like a man sometimes...(not that a man screams his head off so.....XD are such a girl...XD

Randomely...the look on Kame's face when Jin messes up on the guitar....priceless..XD <3 Kame

So yeah, enough of my fangirl ranting >. >


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:: 2006 14 November :: 10.31 pm
:: Mood: drained
:: Music: JC Chasez - Dear Goodbye

When the thought of peanut butter disgusts me.........You -know- I'm seriously sick
Wow...............It has been over a YEAR since I updated....
I have consistancy issues...I realise this >. >

First of all I just have to say that Kame is not my new god..........Cause there's no way God could ever be that cool...*cough* This Video owns my soul Seriously........It's not my fault........*points to Keri* It's all hers! *watches in amusement as Keri points to Britti* Ok...well, maybe it's all Britti's fault, or it could be the fault of whoever introduced Britti to Kat-Tun......or, who knows.

My new Background was not chosen out of an Akame obsession per say, but more out of the simple fact that that picture is way too incredibly gorgeous not to share with the rest of the world....*pets Kame's hair, and face....and generally everything else*

Aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaanyways...........Praise the new is almighty-and pray homage to the JE God.

Now that that's over and done with...I feel majorly sicky, so I will tell you all about my ever nearing horrible future of either a worthless broken puddle of tears, or a psychotic homicidal over the top severely incredible bitch.........

yeah...............dun ask, I'll tell you anyways, but tomorrow, because I'd like to make it up the stairs in one piece.


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:: 2005 16 May :: 1.24 am

wooo, love the new layout

Worship and adore it =p



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:: 2005 3 May :: 2.04 pm
:: Mood: hyper
:: Music: none

"Sweet!! love is a hobo!!"


omg....I love Seminar......XD


More to come later >. >



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:: 2005 29 April :: 12.00 pm

Soooo, my homework that's due in like....15 minutes, is supposed to be me analysing myself and finding some fault that I myself have created by choosing to ignore a truth, or by convincing myself of another truth.

The problem is....I don't really see it as a fault, XD. But anyways...I figured I'd post it here since it's about me.


I have long prided myself on the ability to accept other people's ideals...I may not agree with them, nor like them, but I can accept that -they- believe in them. There is however, one problem with this. I can't accept people who cannot accept other people. Kinda dorky and totally cliche sounding, I know.
The people who walk around with their up-turned noses, classifying people by their clothes, by their hair, the color of their nails, the amount of make-up they use, and their social skills are the ones I can't stand. The people who believe that they alone matter, and if someone believes in something they don't, then they are disgusting, unworthy of simple walking space, or a moments silence without teasing, jesting, or even violence in a variety of cases. I can accept that someone likes to wear pink, but I cannot stand the person who believes that if you don't -like- to wear pink, you are an outcast. I can accept that someone would believe in a different religion, but I cannot accept that belief if they believe that their religion is absolute, and everyone who does not believe as they do will go to hell.
part of this purely seemingly unreasonable hatred comes from the people who I live around every day. The people you pass in the hall who comment at the top of their voices on what you're wearing that day, the one's that sit around in groups of posse, talking about all the people that they think are gross because of a hairpin, or a jacket that happens to have threads hanging off of it. They seem to believe that surrounding themselves with people who agree with their views somehow makes them right, and if someone laughs at their cruel comments, it gives them the right to think that way. I cannot even describe the pure disgust that rises in my throat at the very sight of those who proudly wear a "I'm a snob and don't care who knows it" sign written all over them.
Perhaps this is a fault of mine, perhaps it isn't, but I can certainly say without a doubt, that those who believe in thinking this way would certainly accuse me of being intolerant of other people's views. I can admitt that I am intolerant, that I could never, would never accept a view that forces itself upon everyone else around who does not share in that belief. Maybe it is all in the eye of the beholder. Some may be intolerant of my intolerance, others may share in my bias. Whatever way you classify it, it is still in nature, a biased opinion, though one could argue it's merit.


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:: 2005 21 April :: 1.02 pm
:: Mood: hyper
:: Music: none

*falls over laughing*

I could never imagine going anywhere else for school..XDDD <3 Polaris

my afternoon class was so hilarious ^^
Seminar+drill+metal saw+Hammer+High Schooler's= XDDD DDDDDDDDDDDD DDDDDDDDD


>. >

for like.......amost an hour, every time someone started reading outload, one of the construction drills would start up and we'd all start laughing. 'Twas funnay. And we had Frank (VP) sitting in for part of the class, and everyone kept telling him to go kick someones butt for making so much Then, after break, we all got back to the room and turned the lights off....cause the room we're in right now is -ebil- -ebil I say ebil-, *cough* the room is like being in an asylum.....anyways, we were all sitting there in the dark just chilling, and Bill came back and turned the lights on...there was like this collective shriek..XD And then, when frank left, he told the contruction people to stop making so much noise on that wall, and the supervisor came over to the room to see where the noise was coming from, and we told him that it had stopped earlier, and like the -second- the door shut behind him, one of the drills started up again, XD

Anyways...more quotes ^^

"it's not my fault I ate beans last night!" (*cough* Matt was being a dork)

"Now we just have to find out who bopped off Frank in the dark" - "no, Frank had to go to a meeting" -"Oh! so thaaaaaaaaat's what they call it these days!"


"This is -Polaris-, if you're not crazy then there's something wrong with you!"

XDDDD <3 Polaris


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:: 2005 21 April :: 11.57 am
:: Mood: amused
:: Music: none

XDDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD was actually kind of fun....o.o
(although considering it's lunch...I'm technically not done)

Comp II was funny XD, we had to a free write, and mine was about toy's I will never get rid of. I used Byrdie for the paper ^^ XDD
And then joe made us all read our now the entire class knows I snuggles with a blue and green elephant


<3 Byrdie

it was funny though, cause I had a bunch of comments in there about how everyone would snuggle with Byrdie if they had one (though they'd never admit it) and how anyone who does not like snuggling with soft fuzzie things needs to call a doctor emmediatly, cause there has to be something wrong with you

*had fun* ^^

AK Studies was halarious and seriously annoying at the same time o.o

Halarious because Jack was subbing for Allie, and was doing joint teaching, so he kept making comments about how he was Allie, then Jack. XD, it was also funny because Casey and I were beating on Cody because he was being his usual idiotic irritating and infuriating self, and Jack would pretend he didn't see anything, and Cody would complain and Jack wold be all like "Who did what? I didn't see anything, I just saw a bunch of kids rehearsing their script!" *cough* XDD And Cody was saying Casey and I should be hussies in the play...*-.- whack* and Jack started making comments about how Cody was the play's Hussie

<3333333333333333333333333 Jack


Advisory was also (amazingly o.O) entertaining today.......usually all we do is sit around and do nothing, except complain about doing nothing, of course..XD. But today, we had to all get weighed and get our height taken because the ASD is "going to start keeping track of OBM" (obesity) And we all started talking about how much of a freak I was because I weigh less than all the girls in the room. (every girl in the room besides me and Kerry are short railroad tracks) I find my lack of weight to be scary considering my big fat hips =p XD. And of course we started talking about how stupid the ASD was, because weight doesn't mean anything (obviously, I mean come on, Amy, who is at least 4 1/2 inches shorter than me, and is as wide as a stick weighed almost 20 more pounds than me o.O) And it was the parent's fault their kids were obese, and there wasn't really anything the ASD could do about it....and then Amy got reeeeeeeeeeeaaaaaally hyper...and started bouncing around in her chair and talking about how everyone was awake and happy today because it's "sunny Sunny SUNNY!!!" as she put it, XD. And then, when there were 2 minutes left before lunch...she started singing, XD.

"Oh it's -2- minutes, I took 2 whole minutes for your present...yeah it feels so good to buy your present...and it only took 2 whole minutes!! "

She was still singing as we left...XDDDDD

<3 Amy

*randome quotes from this morning*

"Wow Sheri, you sound like you were talking to a councellor"

"well you're the one who told him to write about the man who got a pole stuck through him!"

"ok, so that was Allie-" *twirls around* "And this is jack! Ok, so today we're..."

XDDDDD <3 Jack..*cough*

"I could be Stinky Pete!" Chorus: "NO!"

"And you could be writing about the Hussie!" *points to cody*

(<3 Jack, XD)

"Did you have Cocoa Puff's for breakfast Amy!?!? o.o"


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:: 2005 15 April :: 4.08 pm
:: Mood: drained
:: Music: Existentialism on Prom Night - Straylight Run

Fun Fun Fun

Last week was....interesting


First part of the week was ok, started testing...was vastly amused at the easy horridness of the reading test, XD

Then came writing test on was ok....although I fear for 99.9% of the peoples in my room.......-I- was the last one to finish with a grand 50 minutes left..........and thats because I was trying not to show my horrid grammar......and considering that I know at least half of the room doesn't even know what a verb is..............
yeah, XD

I missed the math test, me and mom both got the crud early in the week and it got worse on thursday night.

Finally went back to school on monday after spending the last 4 days with a bucket on the couch.....yeah....that was fun x.x

Of course....I didn't get there until ten...and then at my next class the office made me take the math test....And I was so hoping coming late would make them forget >. > *got like....20 minutes of sleep the night before* The math test....was horrible........My advice to all you little peeps, -never- attempt a math test when doped up on pain killers and sleep deprivation......I felt sooooo stupid x.x And of course...when Gail (the re-take coordinator) found out...she wanted me to just finish the first session and skip the being my usual idiotic stubborn self refused and just asked for a lunch break (which I got....lurve Gail ^^)

After lunch was when the day got, having not had stomache problems for a day and a half was not expecting the sudden tumbling and roundabouts that my stomache decided to do when I was 7 problems away from finishing...and ended up having to go see the nurse...extremely quickly n.n

Of's a testament to my life that Patty was in a meeting, therefor I ended up sitting on a chair in the office, with the secretaries fussing over me because I had turned white as a ghost and was shaking from teeth to toes. life n.n Margeret was so worried about me that she had me lay down and wouldn't let me get my stuff and go home (it was about the time my mom picked me up every day by then), so she went out into the parking lot and -waited- for like....6 or 7 minutes until my mom got there and brought her into the office to take me home...... of course...having turned white with weird splotches on my cheek by that time, and being so icy cold you could almost see the crystalized air I was breathing, mom called the doc, only to find out she'd just left and hour earlier.......have I mentioned that this is my life??? >. >

So anyways, dad ended up carrying me up the stairs....and I slept the whole rest of the day.........

felt better tuesday, went to the doc, usual, didn't have any ideas, so I had to have a blood test done today................



I'm so abused

>. >

<. <


So anyways....thats my exciting life's story....


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:: 2005 31 March :: 5.41 pm
:: Mood: indifferent
:: Music: none o.O

Oh the joys of life………

>. >

Soooo, today was interesting………………………………..
I had a ruff draft ready for Comp II when it was actually due this morning for the first time this semester…my teacher Joe must have complemented me on how good my paper was at least 5 times………..I think he was trying to tell me something =p, XD
Alaska Studies was as boring as usual…..*snore* now of course I have another stinking project to do……*kills the Anchorage School District*
The class might have been better if Allie at least could teach the class herself, instead of going through some crap class arrangement with district provided materials and everything…………*hates hates hates* ebil peoples.
Advisory was kinda boring…..kinda like usual……….
Lunch was as bit more interesting…….considering that I spent the entire lunch period running around trying to find a damn phone that would dial a long distance number. Let me tell you something…..this afternoon was –not- worth it just to find out that the two blacklights I had my eyes on were –both- over 2,000 freaking bucks…..not even our advisory has that much…… now I have to find out if the remaining two that are going for 200 are pieces of crap or not…………..

*hates people who over-price just because some people will pay it*

so yeah….then in my 2hr and 20m class after lunch I got to spend 30 minutes in the dark during Seminar….which was actually kinda fun ^^ XD Our electrical panels broke down so….yesh….it was interesting to say the least……..

Yup….fun fun


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