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:: 2004 14 April :: 10.47 pm
:: Mood: amused
:: Music: die trying- oxygen's gone

plEEEEEEEze do this.
I want everyone who reads this to ask me 3 questions, no more no less.

Ask me anything you want.

Then I want you to go to your journal, copy and paste this allowing your friends (including myself) to ask you anything.

8 on fire | burst into flame

:: 2004 14 April :: 1.40 pm
:: Mood: artistic
:: Music: jet-cold hard bitch

girl band
so jack had this idea...he said that me, claire, erinn, and olga should start a band. or as he put it "girl band. because girl bands are hott". at first we were kinda like "yea whatever jack shutup" but the more i thought about it the better the idea sounded. it would actually be really fun. so props to jack on his idea, and he will officially be our manager. he has to help us write music tho. and touch up on the lyrics that me and claire are going to start writing this weekend. we have several band names in mind. theres one thats highest up on the list, but i wont say which one cuz im gonna put all of them in here. LEAVE A COMMENT AND VOTE FOR THE BEST ONE. also, if you want to be in on this project, have name/song ideas, or just think were awesome, leave a comment and let us know. yea. rock on.
ok, so in no particular order :
running on empty, sex in the dairy aisle, the high notes, fighting back tears, the drama comedy, cheap hose, random task, one night stan's, a fire from the sky, 3rd to die, altamont, avarice, its only eternity, and fearing the wake
what should our band be called.....?

10 on fire | burst into flame

:: 2004 11 April :: 7.16 pm
:: Mood: depressed
:: Music: dashboard confessional-rapid hope loss

well spring break has been pretty fun so far. went to munising/grayling with claire. we learned alot of things which ill put in here later after we compile the list. but yea we had an awesome time. we met boys. troy who was really hot and had an awesome tatoo, bobby(boob) who was cute and really kewl too, and shane who we really have to thank for it cuz he introduced us all. it was kewl. boys in bikinis are funny. ask me for pics.
yea....hanging out with claire made me alot less depressed than i was on thursday. i didnt tell her at first cuz i didnt want it to ruin the trip. i knew talking about it would have just made me all depressed again. so i chose not to say anything and just to let myself have a good time. i think i have a problem with bottling up my feelings. like even when i talk about it i just kind of shrug it off like its nothing. claire says im dead inside. lol. kinda wish i were tho. it would make things alot easier. damn feelings. and then i come home and its back to depression again. grr. i couldnt help wanting to cry all day. i mostly just want to lay in the dark and stare at the wall. im tired, but i cant sleep so it really doesnt matter. plus it didnt help that i had to go to my gmas for easter and hear her tell me for and hour how im wasting my life away and what a dumbass i am. a direct quote "you used to be so smart". thanx grama. happy easter to you too you fucking nazi. goddamn. on the plus, ive written a few songs. thats probably the only good outcome out of anything i ever do. w00t. or...sarcastic w00t. whichever. i guess this is what i get for breaking the only rule i have for myself... shoud have known that was going to blow up in my face sooner or later. although, it would have been nice had it been sooner. so thanx for that...or not. im done. with everything. i dont even know anymore. im just....done

4 on fire | burst into flame

:: 2004 28 March :: 8.34 pm
:: Mood: apathetic
:: Music: nickelback - someday

this weekend was pretty boring. i had trivers training so i really couldnt do anything. i did get to drive on the expressway tho, which was pretty sweet. minus the fact that i had to drive with the creepy, uber mean instuctor guy who is making us do a report? what is that!?. grr. friday i went to erinn's pary with claire. it was pretty kewl. except for now i have to rent girl interrupted cuz i fell asleep in the middle of it. i hung out with steve last week. that was pretty fun. we saw dawn of the dead. it was really good. scary and funny. which makes it so much kewler. arg. i need sleep.

3 on fire | burst into flame

:: 2004 17 March :: 3.15 pm
:: Mood: hyper
:: Music: bright eyes-aperfect sonnet

fun fun fun fun fun-ny! this is what happens when im hyper. i do stupid shit. but then people like claire play along cuz shes awesome like that. and we have interesting conversations where we pretend to be someone else. i swear to god we should be on whose line. thats would be mutha fuckin aweome. read the hilarity:

justAmirage515: fine
herebutnot1708: what
justamirage515: dont answer your fone
herebutnot1708: i didn't hear it
justAmirage515: a likey story
justAmirage515: im on to you
justAmirage515: mwa ha ha h ah a
herebutnot1708: on to what about me?
justAmirage515: your evil ploy not to answer phones
justAmirage515: it will upset the universe
herebutnot1708: which is u?
justAmirage515: but ive got you now
justAmirage515: ull never get away
herebutnot1708: ok
justAmirage515: oh dont try to run
justAmirage515: we will get you
herebutnot1708: *running*
herebutnot1708: oh no oh no
herebutnot1708: don't get me
herebutnot1708: please
herebutnot1708: oww
herebutnot1708: stop
justAmirage515: see
justAmirage515: told you
justAmirage515: we got you
justAmirage515: and it hurt
justAmirage515: herebutnot1708: oww
justAmirage515: dont try to deny it
justAmirage515: we have it on record
herebutnot1708: damn
justAmirage515: any last words?
herebutnot1708: yea. fuck you biatch *runs away AND escapes*
justAmirage515: lmao
herebutnot1708: and we have that on record
justAmirage515: i love the emphasis on AND
herebutnot1708: just had to make
herebutnot1708: sure
herebutnot1708: some ppl run but don't escape
herebutnot1708: but me
herebutnot1708: no no
herebutnot1708: too smart for you
justAmirage515: oh youre soo good for us
justAmirage515: but we will find you
justAmirage515: until we meet again evil escapist thingy, until we met again
herebutnot1708: yea....keri
justAmirage515: and by "we" i mean ...
justAmirage515: THE UNIVERSE
herebutnot1708: so thats you?
justAmirage515: no , as i said before...
justAmirage515: THE UNIVERSE
herebutnot1708: justAmirage515: it will upset the universe
herebutnot1708: which is u?
justAmirage515: but ive got you now
herebutnot1708: you said IVE
herebutnot1708: YOU = UNIVERSE
herebutnot1708: what now?!
justAmirage515: oh, our weak little robot made a mistake
herebutnot1708: uh huh
herebutnot1708: so the universe has robots now?
herebutnot1708: whta kind of madness is this?
justAmirage515: its is incapable of comprehending the power of THE UNIVERSE
justAmirage515: lol yes, we have robots
justAmirage515: and we say lol
herebutnot1708: uh huh
herebutnot1708: well us over here
herebutnot1708: ....dont
justAmirage515: we try to blend in with the pathetic weak minded beings of the human kind
justAmirage515: all though i have to admit
justAmirage515: they are a useful tool in helping us catch you, evil escapist thingy
herebutnot1708: oh really
justAmirage515: yes, they are stupid, and give us information readily
herebutnot1708: i don't
justAmirage515: but youre the one were trying to catch
herebutnot1708: ohh yea.
justAmirage515: why would you give us information on yourself?
justAmirage515: that would be weak and feeble minded
herebutnot1708: to throw you off
justAmirage515: oooooh
justAmirage515: now youve let us on to your plan
justAmirage515: HUMAN
herebutnot1708: ah but see maybe i said that to throw you off about throwing you off
herebutnot1708: and maybe i said that to throw you off about throwing you off about throwing you off
herebutnot1708: yea! what now biatch!
justAmirage515: ooh, so now youre going to tell me your plan, and say youre not going to use the plan, when in reality you ARE and we think you arent. OR you ARENT goin to use it just to spite us and inevitably get away
justAmirage515: well we wont let this happen
herebutnot1708: m-a-y-b-e.......
justAmirage515: just watch your back, eveil escapist thingy
justAmirage515: THE UNIVERSE is everywhere
herebutnot1708: jeeeez us! spell evil right at least!!
justAmirage515: lol sry
justAmirage515: weak robot again
herebutnot1708: excuses excuses

1 on fire | burst into flame

:: 2004 29 February :: 8.16 pm
:: Mood: contemplative
:: Music: goo goo dolls - name

And even though the moment passed me by
I still can't turn away
Cuz all the dreams you never thought you'd lose
Got tossed along the way
And letters that you never meant to send
Got lost or thrown away

And now we're grown up orphans
And never knew their names
We don't belong to no one
That's a shame
But you could hide beside me
Maybe for a while
And I won't tell no one your name
And I won't tell 'em your name

And scars are souvenirs you never lose
The past is never far
Did you lose yourself somewhere out there?
Did you get to be a star?
And don't it make you sad to know that life
Is more than who we are

We grew up way too fast
And now there's nothing to believe
And reruns all become our history
A tired song keeps playing on a tired radio
And I won't tell no one your name
And I won't tell 'em your name
I won't tell em' your name
Oooh, oooh, oooh
I won't tell em' your name

I think about you all the time
But I don't need the same
It's lonely where you are
Come back down
And I won't tell 'em your name

burst into flame

:: 2004 24 February :: 4.18 pm
:: Mood: pissed off
:: Music: the bloodhound gang-i hope you die

dont talk to me
right now there are two people that i wish would fall off a cliif, burst into flame and be encircled in a blazing inferno before being run over by a bus and being left to die alone. yep. my mom refuses to let me go to danny's ever or let us be alone when he comes here. so that means we get to sit in the living room while my mom sits in the kitchen listening to everything we say and do. fun. all solely because of the fact that she is satans asshole and wants to make everyone elses life just one giant ass zit on her head. danny refuses to let me kill people, but eh...ill just go crawl in hole and wait for them to die. there are alot of other things involved in this that piss me off even more, but im not even gunna begin to put em in here.

"other people may die as a result of this"
"no! no causing harm to anyone"
"howbout myself?" "no"
"small animals?" "yea that'll work"

eh. ill leave on this happy note with a happy song {sarcastic grin}

... You must die I alone am best!
I hope ya flip some guy the bird,
He cuts you off and you're forced to swerve,
In front of the Beatles' tour bus,
A Bookmobile and a Mack truck,
Hauling hazardous biological waste,
The light turns red you have no brakes,
And "Hard Copy" gets it all on tape,
So I can see the look on your face,
... Die Die Die Die Die Die Die!,
... Die Die Die Die Die Die Die!,
I hope your Pinto begins to spin,
Takes out a disabled Vietnam Veteran,
Mows down a Nobel Peace Prize Winner,
And maybe some orphans having Christmas dinner,
Perhaps even the British Royal Family,
And the Rabbi that's clutching the bottle - fed puppy,
And we can't forget the newlyweds,
And those Jerry's Kids are as good as dead,
I hope this helps to emphasize,
I hope this helps to clarify,
I hope you die,
I hope your cellmate thinks he's God,
But C. N. N. refer to him as "Bowling Ball Bag Bob",
Serving time again for abuse of a corpse,
Only this time the victim's a Clydesdale horse,
While he masturbates to photos of livestock,
He does the "Silence of the Lambs" dance to Christian Rock,
Eats feces and quotes from "Deliverance",
And fights with his imaginary playmate Vince,
... Die Die Die Die Die Die Die!,
... Die Die Die Die Die Die Die!,
I hope he grins like Jack Nicholson,
And forces you to play a game called Balls On Chin,
And whatever happens next is all a blur,
But you remember "fist" can be a verb,
And when you finally regain consciousness,
You're bound and gagged in a wedding dress,
And the prison guard looks the other way,
'Cause he's the guy ya flipped the bird the other day,
I hope this helps to emphasize,
I hope this helps to clarify,
I hope you die,
... I hope you die!.

1 on fire | burst into flame

:: 2004 17 February :: 2.10 pm
:: Mood: amused
:: Music: evanescence-haunted

bored. no school. more bored.
You are a Khaos angel. You are different from all
the rest. You are a special breed of angel,
prone to suffer in the world that you are in
now. No matter how much you try to believe that
your not special, you are. There is alot that
you want to do in this world. Khaos angels are
very dramatic, we tend to have the ability to
cheer people up no matter what the mood, and
hold in your emotions. You should be proud,
Khaos angels are very rare to find in this
world of ours... (and yes. you are a completely
different type. Hence the name
"Khaos" and not Chaos. quite strange

What Different Kind of Angel are you...? ( Anime-ish pics )
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Well well well, the old fashioned 17th century
vampire, one of my faves. You look for the good
things in life, you posses a lot of classical
class, and follow that of the original
vampires, you have no shame in what you are,
infact you embrace it, you love it and wouldn't
have it any other way. Your wealth is
unspeakable and your way of luring people with
your mystical ways and looks is amazing, and
most people would often call you The
Seductress. Please rate this quiz!

What Kind Of Vampire Would You Be? (Cool answers)!
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You are night, you are dark and mysterious, you
have more than likly been through some kind of
truma, depression. you have a creative mind,
and more than likly find peace enjoyment in
drawing, painting, writing. You are closed and
hidden away from people, and hide you emotions
behind a wall which you use on people. Try to
become more open, spread your creativity, you
have no idea of how many people there are out
there like you, exposing your art and yourself
can make other people come out, so many people
would look up to your for your courage and your
spirit, your not evil or bad, just
missunderstood, so get out there and show them
just what you are made of, don't worry about
what other people think, it's what you think
that really matters. Please rate this quiz!!!

What Element Would You Rule Over If You Were A Vampire?
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burst into flame

:: 2004 11 February :: 9.08 pm
:: Mood: cranky
:: Music: taking back sunday - bike scene

boredome strikes again
What is your name?: Keri
Are you named after anyone?: yea. one of my mom's friends
What's your screename?: justamirage515
Would you name a child of yours after you?:
If you were born a member of the opposite sex what would your name be?: benjamin
If you could switch names with a friend who would it be?: ummm...no
Are there any mispronounciations/typos that ppl do w/ your name constantly?: yea. they spell it Carrie usually and when they try to say my whole name they say it like carolyn.
Would you drop your last name if you became famous?: yea

Your gender:: female
Straight/Gay/Bi:: u all kno that one. lol
Single?: nope
If not, do you want to be?: no
Birthdate:: march 18
Your age:: 15 for one more month
Age you act:: u tell me.
Age you wish you were:: 16 forever
Your height:: 5'4"
Eye color:: blue
Happy with it?: yea cuz they change to different blues
Hair color:: brown
Happy with it?: kinda. i want it to be blue... which it will be
Lefty/righty/ambidextrous:: righty
Your living arrangement:: parents
Your family:: mom dad younger sister
Have any pets?: 2 cats
Whats your job?: ill let u know when i get one
Piercings?: 5...ears
Tattoos?: not yet
Obsessions?: washing my hands.
Addictions?: not that i know of
Do you speak another language?: spanish
Have a favorite quote?: "i shot the pilot im begging you to fly this for me" - brand new
Do you have a webpage?: yea. ask me for it

Deep Thoughts About Life and You in it
Do you live in the moment?: yea
Do you consider yourself tolerant of others?: most of the time
Do you have any secrets?: who doesn't.
Do you hate yourself?: at times
Do you like your handwriting?: its ok
Do you have any bad habits?: u tell me
What is the compliment you get from most people?: my eyes
If a movie was made about your life, what would it be called?: no idea
What's your biggest fear?: bees, spiders, and tiny spaces
Can you sing?: no. enough said
Do you ever pretend to be someone else just to look cool?: uh...no
Are you a loner?: sometimes
What are your #1 priorities in life?: music
If you were another person, would you be friends with you?: maybe, depends on the day i guess.
Are you a daredevil?: i guess
Is there anything you fear or hate about yourself?: not really. im good
Are you passive or agressive?: passive agressive...heh what not
Do you have a journal?: yea. claire made me
What is your greatest strength and weakness?: music. life
If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be?: my feet
Do you think you are emotionally strong?: not really
Is there anything you regret doing/not doing in life?: no
Do you think life has been good so far?: there have been awesome times, some bad but overall yea, good.
What is the most important lesson you've learned from life?: dont trust everyone, only a select few.
What do you like the most about your body?: well, i liked my hair when it was uber long.
And least?: my stomach
Do you think you are good looking?: eh.
Are you confident?: kinda
What is the fictional character you are most like?: a mix between jane, daria, and trent. if you can imagine that. but then marisol from hard love by ellen wittlinger. good book. read it
Are you perceived wrongly?: to some people

Do You...
Smoke?: no
Do drugs?: no
Read the newspaper?: no
Pray?: no
Go to church?: no
Talk to strangers who IM you?: sometomes
Sleep with stuffed animals?: no
Take walks in the rain?: hell yes i love the rain
Talk to people even though you hate them?: no. if i hate them, they know. trust me
Drive?: i will soon
Like to drive fast?: yea man

Would or Have You Ever?
Liked your voice?: no
Hurt yourself?: yea
Been out of the country?: yep. canada
Eaten something that made other people sick?: heh. cream cheese and jelly on white cheddar cheese its
Been in love?: yea
Done drugs?: yea
Gone skinny dipping?: yep
Had a medical emergency?: yea i drank a bottle of cepacol and had to get my stomach pumped
Had surgery?: yep
Ran away from home?: several times
Played strip poker?: no
Gotten beaten up?: depends on how you were looking at it. it was pretty much even
Beaten someone up?: yep. punched them right in the face and it felt damn good.
Been picked on?: not to my face
Been on stage?: yep
Slept outdoors?: yep. starts are pretty
Thought about suicide?: yea
Pulled an all nighter?: whoo all the time
If yes, what is your record?: all night anf then wne to work at 9 not to go to sleep until 2 the next night
Gone one day without food?: only when i had mono.
Talked on the phone all night?: yepp.
Slept together with the opposite sex w/o actually having sex?: yea. awwww
Slept all day?: hell yea. im lazy
Killed someone?: no
Made out with a stranger?: yea
Had sex with a stranger?: no
Thought you're going crazy?: all the time
Kissed the same sex?: yea
Done anything sexual with the same sex?: well i humped claire...and sheilas boob is shoulder like. but thats about it
Been betrayed?: yea
Had a dream that came true?: many a times
Broken the law?: yea
Met a famous person?: no
Have you ever killed an animal by accident?: no
On purpose?: no
Told a secret you swore you wouldn't tell?: yea *sad face*
Stolen anything?:yea
Been on radio/tv?: me myssa, lisa, and melissa were on 9.31 on haloween last year
Been in a mosh-pit?: yep
Had a nervous breakdown?: no
Bungee jumped?: no but i will
Had a dream that kept coming back?: yes

Belive in life on other planets?: yea
Miracles?: kinda
Astrology?: yea, more than releigion
Magic?: yea
God?: hes there. but thats about it
Satan?: ^^same
Santa?: hes my friend!!!
Ghosts?: yea, ive seen em
Luck?: yea
Love at first sight?: yea
Yin and yang (that good cant exist w/o bad)?: yea
Witches?: yea
Easter bunny?: chills with me and santa
Believe its possible to remain faithful forever?: no
Believe theres a pot of gold at the end of a rainbow?: maybe. if i could get to the damn rainbow.
Do you wish on stars?: sometimes

Deep Theological Questions
Do you believe in the traditional view of Heaven and Hell?: no
Do you think God has a gender?: no
Do you believe in organized religion?: hell no
Where do you think we go when we die?: i dunno where ur goin, but im just gunna die.

Do you have any gay/lesbian friends?: yea
Who is your best friend?: Claire
Who's the one person that knows most about you?: Claire
What's the best advice that anyone has ever given to you?: dont know
Your favourite inside joke?: "dude, you got any turkey? lmao good times
Thing you're picked on most about?: my toe
Who's your longest known friend?: ive known claire, jack, and ralph since kindergarden
Newest?: inna
Shyest?: Claire
Funniest?: danny
Sweetest?: mike
Closest?: claire
Weirdest?: keri or danny. go figure
Smartest?: inna or jeff
Ditziest?: lili
Friends you miss being close to the most?: everyone from regina
Last person you talked to online?: eric
Who do you talk to most online?: ralph
Who are you on the phone with most?: claire and danny
Who do you trust most?: claire and danny
Who listens to your problems?: claire danny ralph eric jack
Who do you fight most with?: i dont really fight with any of my friends
Who's the nicest?: i dunno
Who's the most outgoing?: jack
Who's the best singer?: claire and angie
Who's on your shit-list?: you all know the cliff list
Have you ever thought of having sex with a friend?: maybe
Who's your second family?: claires family
Do you always feel understood?: no
Who's the loudest friend?: jack or mike
Do you trust others easily?: yea, but ive learned not to
Who's house were you last at?: erinn's
Name one person who's arms you feel safe in:: danny's
Do your friends know you?: claire does. others know most. but not all
Friend that lives farthest away:: claire, eric, and scott live out in the boonies

Love and All That
Do you consider love a mistake?: no
What do you find romantic?: just holding me and, not een kissing out anything. i just like feeling protected
Turn-on?: sense of humor
Turn-off?: arrogance
First kiss?: jamie
If someone u had no interest in had interest in dating u how would u feel?: flattered
Do you prefer knowing someone before dating them or going: usually
Have u ever wished it was more socially acceptable 4 a girl 2 ask a guy out: yea sometimes. but i like that guys ask us out
Have you ever been romantically attracted to someone physically unattractiv: yea
Do you think the opposite sex finds you good looking?: i dont think so, but from what they tell me they do. so yea.
What is best about the opposite sex?: that theyre overall bigger and stronger and can pick me up :O)
What is the worst thing about the opposite sex?: the need to be "macho" when theyre with their frinds
What's the last present someone gave you?: beads from jack colville and steve at the dance but real present was a pearl from danny
Are you in love?: yes
Do you consider your significant other hot?: yea

Who Was the Last Person...
That haunted you?: i dunno
You wanted to kill?: scott. but were over that
That you laughed at?: sara in 6th hour
That laughed at you?: inna. cuz i couldnt talk
You went shopping with?:claire my mom and my sister
That broke your heart?: hasnt happened yet
To disappoint you?: dont remember
To ask you out?: danny
To make you cry?: my cat. lol. but my family at christmas
To brighten up your day?: danny
That you thought about?: claire. FEEL BETTER!
You saw a movie with?: vlaire and erinn
You talked to on the phone?: danny
You talked to through IM/ICQ?: jack
You saw?: my dad jst walked out of the basement
You lost?: a few ppl...

Right This Moment...
Are you going out?: not im gunna go to sleep
Will it be with your significant other?: i wish. i wanna see him :o(
Or some random person?: dont say random
What are you wearing right now?: pajamas
Body part you're touching right now:: my eye. theres something in it.
What are you worried about right now?: not gunna say
What book are you reading?: i just finished "go ask alice" and im gunna start dante's inferno
What's on your mousepad?: dont have one
Use 5 words to describe how you're feeling:: tired bored hungry sick lonely
Are you bored?: yea
Are you tired?: very
Are you talking to anyone online?: i have an away message up
Are you talking to anyone on the phone?: no. but claire is texting me
Are you lonely or content?: a little of both
Are you listening to music?: yea. taking back sunday

wow that took a long time. pretty pointless. feel free to comment and tell me how stupid it was. gnight

1 on fire | burst into flame

:: 2004 11 February :: 8.49 pm
:: Mood: blah
:: Music: people singing on amierican idol

grrr im sick
this weekend was fun. friday i went to claires for the night, only to leave at 12 to go to mexican town. damn i love mexican food. saturday was the dance. angie and claire came over before it and we all got to hang out for a while. we wore skirts cuz we're kewl like that. but it did take a little getting used to. i got to see jack, ralph, eric, tony, pat, victor, and steve. so it was a good time. me and claire spent the night at erinns. that was awesome. we laughed so gard all night. and we made SMORES. how kewl is that. i got to put my handprint on the wall, and it looks pretty damn freaky. hey guys, testicular region! lmfao. fun fun.
monday i got a cold and ive been feeling like crap since then. arg i hate winter.

1 on fire | burst into flame

:: 2004 5 February :: 3.48 pm
:: Mood: confused
:: Music: lover i dont have to love - bright eyes

i stole this out of eric's journal cuz i thought it was kewl. plus im bored as hell
[x] Part 1 -- The Basics [x]
What's your name? :::Kerilyn Louise Moeller
Birthplace :::Detroit, MI
Age :::15
Age you act :::depends
Current location :::Warren, MI
Eye color :::Blue
Hair color :::Brown...soon to be blue
Right, lefty or ambidextrous? :::Righty
Zodiac sign? :::Pisces
Height? :::5'4"
[x] Part 2 -- Describe... [x]
Your heritage/nationality :::German, Irish, Swiss...and alot of other crap mixed in there
Your hair :::longish, brownish, straightish, alot of ishs
Your fears :::bees and being locked in tiny places
Your perfect room :::black walls, with a black light in the ceiling
What you practically do in a day :::sleep, school, eat, sleep. yea.
[x] Part 3 -- What is/are... [x]
Words you overuse :::score, killer, there
Phrases you overuse :::people are stupid and wat up doe (dont ask)
Your first thought when you wake up :::i want to go back to sleep
Your greatest accomplishment :::uh...i won the spelling bee? does that count?
Something you want to do :::skydive
[x] Part 4 -- This or that [x]
Pepsi or Coke :::Pepsi
McDonald's or Burger Kings :::Burger King
Britney Spears or Christina Aguilera :::Christina. shes fuckin hott
Chocolate or vanilla :::Chocolate
Adidas or Nike :::Adidas
Black or white :::Black
Bills or Coins ((Think $$$)) :::Bills
Burgers or hot dogs :::Hot Dogs
Egypt or France :::Egypt
Rock or rap :::Rock
[x] Part 5 -- Do you...[x]
Smoke :::No...
Cuss :::don't fuckin swear!
Sing well :::ha ha ha no
Sing in the shower :::yea
Talk to yourself --a lot-- :::heh. yea
Believe in yourself :::not really
Like taking these longass surveys? :::when im bored
Play an instrument :::4
Want to go to college? :::yea. art school
Want to get married? :::yea
Want to have children? :::yea
Think you're a health freak? :::or not
Get along with your parents :::at times
Get along with your siblings? :::sometimes
Think you're popular :::i have friends. close enough
[x] Part 6 -- In the past month have you..[x]
Gone out of state :::yea
Drank alchohal :::yes, and you spelled alcohol wrong
Smoke :::no...
Get high :::no
Done any drugs :::no
Eaten an entire box of oreos :::heh. it was cheezits but that counts right
Been on stage :::no
Gone skinny dipping :::no
Been dumped :::no
Dyed your hair :::yea
Stolen anything :::no
[x] Part 7 -- Your friends! =D [x]
Craziest :::danny
Loudest :::mike
Most shy :::claire
Blondest :::lisa. but thats what i love about her
Smartest :::inna or jeff
Kindest :::jack
Best personality :::eric. emo kids rule
Most talented :::ralph
Best singer :::claire
Most ghetto :::rob
Drama Queen ((or King XP)) :::angie. but in a good way
Pain in the ass :::john and robert..although were not all that much of friends
The one you just want to strangle to death ((Homer Simpson style)):::scott. sry
Funniest :::danny
Best person for advice :::claire
Dependable :::sara
Trustworthy :::all my friends
Druggie :::we dont do that. were good kids now. ;o)
Most likely to end up in jail :::heather
Person you've known the longest :::jack and ralph
[x] Part 8 -- The Last... [x]
Last dream :::last night
Last nightmare :::last week
Car ride :::saturday
Last time you cried :::when i put casey down 2 weeks ago
Last movie seen :::donnie darko
Last movie rented :::S.W.A.T.
Last book read :::Go Ask Alice
Last word said :::alright
Last curse word said :::fuckin
Last time you laugh :::before 6th hour
Last phone call :::last night
Last CD played :::evanescence
Last song you listened to :::lover i dont have to love - bright eyes
Last annoyance :::people saying "Hey" when i have my away message up.
Last IM :::lisa
Last weird encounter :::chris at lunch when i asked for a peice of gum and he stuck out his tongue
Last person you hugged :::danny
Last person you yelled at :::kevin
Last time you wore a skirt :::a few months ago
Last time you've been evil :::last week
Sarcastic? :::about 5 min ago
Last time you fought with your parents :::tuesday
Last time you wished upon a star :::i dont...
Played Truth or Dare :::hmm....birthday paty last year?
Spent quality time alone :::yesterday
[x] Part 9 -- I swear this is the last one! -- Randomness [x]
Are you talking to someone on AIM :::yea
Do you feel lonely :::no...
Ever TP'd someone's house :::yea
How about egging someone's house :::no
Do you not like dislike not like me? :::who?
Ain't Eminem and 50 Cent just fine? :::no. only eminem. 50 cent is an ugly fuck
Yo Momma :::wanna know why im so fat? cuz everytime i fuck yo momma she makes me a sanwich.....heh..or not
Ever been so hungry you felt like you could eat the person next to you? :::yes
What do you think of George Bush? :::i dont really care
Any secret fetishes? :::pain
Do you like to wear chains? O_o :::yea
How many languages do you speak? :::2. and bits and peices of others
Damn.. are your fingers tired? Cause mine sure are! :::not really
Glad this is over? ((Say yes and I'll stalk you XP)) :::fall off a cliff

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:: 2004 2 February :: 3.48 pm
:: Mood: bored
:: Music: smile empty soul - therapy

la la la
this weekend was fun. friday claire, danny, ralph, jack, and eric came over. we played ass-slap foosball. heh. that was a good time. we watched donnie darko witch was a pretty good movie, if i had seen all of it. claire and eric were so cute! theyre going out again. aww. satuday i went to claires and we did what we usually do - nothing. yea. were lazy. get over it. its fun being lazy. sunday she came back over here. we drank way too much coffe and played a very hyper game of LIFE. thats right. mike came over. we tried to teach him guitar. fun times. yepp. jack thinks me and claire are crazy cuz we were together since skool got out friday till 9 on sunday. well, we are. mwaaahaaahaaa.

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:: 2004 1 February :: 3.27 pm
:: Mood: awake
:: Music: puddle of mudd-away from me

oooooo quiz
Your wings are BROKEN and tattered. You are
an angelic spirit who has fallen from grace for
one reason or another - possibly, you made one
tragic mistake that cost you everything. Or
maybe you were blamed for a crime you didn't
commit. In any case, you are faithless and
joyless. You find no happiness, love, or
acceptance in your love or in yourself. Most
days are a burden and you wonder when the
hurting will end. Sweet, beautiful and
sorrowful, you paint a tragic and touching
picture. You are the one that few understand.
Those that do know you are likely to love you
deeply and wish that they could do something to
ease your pain. You are constantly living in
memories of better times and a better world.
You are hard on yourself and self-critical or
self-loathing. Feeling rejected and unloved,
you are sensitive, caring, deep, and despite
your tainted nature, your soul is
breathtakingly beautiful.

*~*~*Claim Your Wings - Pics and Long Answers*~*~*
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:: 2004 13 January :: 3.00 pm
:: Mood: depressed
:: Music: dashboard confessional-am i missing?

i dont beleive you when you say everything will be wonderful someday
it seems like everything i love around me is dying or fading away. i give up. theres no point in living. why the hell are we alive when everyone is gunna fucking die anyway. i dont get it, and im not even going to attempt to. i dont even care anymore. i now realize that you shouldnt get attached to anything because eventually it will either die, leave you, or hurt you. if you dont fall in love you cant get hurt. i wish people didnt have emotions, all they do is fuck you up in the long run. actaully, people shouldnt even be here. i was telling this theory to claire, and now she probly thinks im a psycho but this is it..there should be no people, because then there would be no death, there would be no emotions, there would be no thinking, there would be no worry. if there were no people in the first place, i wouldnt be sitting here wishing i could just fall of the face of the earth. people wouldnt be sad when other people died, because there would be no life. no one would even be coming up with this theory so no one would have to feel bad about saying it or thinking it. there should be no life so there is no death. it wouldnt work if there was just no death, because then everyone would live forever, then there would still be worry, depression, thinking...it would still fucking suck, but it would just suck longer. so my cliff theory still reigns on this one, and you should take it as a compliment when i tell u i want you to fall off a cliff and die. but then what the fuck happens after we die? im not even gunna get into that right now...i am however gunna go sit in the dark and sleep until i eventually fade away and die.

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:: 2003 22 December :: 6.32 pm
:: Mood: bored
:: Music: brand new - good to know if i ever need attention all i have to do is die

its beginning to seem lot like christmas...
well...its that time of year again. whoo fuckin hoo right? o yea... 2 more days... although i really dont know what im counting down to. normally, it would be going to my gpas house to pig out on good ass food get a butt load of presents and then hang out with my cousins. but this year i get to do...guess what. absolutely nothing. all because my family are all stupid mother fuckers who get into huge arguments over the stupidest little things. oh, but i do get to do one thing. i get to go to my grandmas house. yay. although i probably wont get anything because, well, i worship satan. we dont have a tree up so apparently we are the cause to the fall of christianity. and ya know what? damn straight bitch. were all probly gunna burn in hell anyway so whats the point. yea...so my mom has officially ruined what used to be the one part of the year when i didnt want pretty much everyone to fall off a cliff. eh o well.. im done. im going to claires yet again. that sould help...we're going caroling. so merry mother fucking christmas.

It's Christmas time again
It's time to be nice to the people you can't stand
All year
I'm growing tired of all this Christmas cheer
You people scare me
Please stay away from my home
If you don't wanna get beat down
Just leave the presents and then leave me alone

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