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boricuababy

:: 2004 15 August :: 2.13pm
:: Mood: excited
:: Music: Dickey Ride

amara got tickets to the VMA's!!!!
wow..that is so frickin koo!!..im happy for them..better take pictures!!..lol

sammi came over last nite..we hung out at my house..saw barbershop 2..i love that movie..sam liked it too.."i can't talk bout luther vandross??..whattttt cha gon do bout it??"..lol..cedric the entertainer is so funny..after the movie we had chinese food!! that was good..then we juss chilled in my room..and pretty much just talked..that was funny..our little "scenes"..lol..u hadda be there..she stayed till like around 11:30-ish..then we took her home..wen we got back we watched the dvd we had bought earlier.."the best of cedric the entertainer"..lol..that was hilarious!! u gotta see it..today's just been a really lazy day..i've been up only two hours but im already sleepy..i think it's the weather..rainy..n icky..i went to publix with my moms and i went to the deli to get ham n salami and the lady didnt speak english..wow..that was interesting..lol..i didnt get her she didnt get me..jon and pat let like an hour ago for baseball practice..this week is gonna be really busy..im not lookin foward to it..lol..cheer practice monday..pictures on tues..and last yrs. spanish exam on wednesday..errr..oh well..gotta get over it..

meli-this friday for sure!!..lol

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playmate101

:: 2004 13 August :: 10.09pm
:: Mood: jubilant
:: Music: Goodies // Ciara ft. Petey Pablo

"should we go up and say sry before he keys the car?" <333 lol
school has been fine. i have to train 2mrw 4 cashier at publix 2mrw. 9am-12pm =) . i'm still refusing to take the bus to school... it's sorta working. not really. grr. anyways, i've gotta go. shower & sleep =) s0o tired. i get to see jonah 2mrw! jason was sweet today.

o yeah we went to taco bell afterschool today lol. and danielle stopped by. o n tim asked me about antonio... n if i was dating him. lol that's funny. there's really no cute guys at our school, and most of them r jerks. nikki's car is super cute & ana & marci r so sweet.

brittany was supposed to call, but she didn't. hm... full week of school starting monday. sickening. <3 bye byes

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sameen

:: 2004 13 August :: 8.25pm
:: Mood: full
:: Music: salt shaker

just had dinner- i'm stuffed, that's for sure.

well week no. 1 is over. not that it was such an event-making week, but yeah. i'm glad it's the weekend tho. i was excited 2 c everyone, but i didn't even get 2 c that many ppl. this year, ppl who i have classes wit- they're in a lot of my classes, as opposed 2 last year when it was more spread out and i saw more ppl. i guess in a way it's good cuz i'll get close wit those ppl, but i was close wit those ppl neway. the classes all seem like they're gonna be hard. maybe not necessarily HARD, but if u want an a, then u're gonna have 2 work for them. not like alg 2 last year, when u get pay attention 4 the review she did right b4 the test [which, in mind, was exactly LIKE the test] and get by. or morone helpin us out in english. shit, and we'll actually have an accomplished social studies teacher. i always take a long time adjusting. strangely, i always do better second semester. so in a nutshell:

strategies 4 college success:
wudn't know cuz i haven't had the class yet, but shiit, 6 classes r enough- thank u. best part is gettin up late, stretchin my arm, and bein like hahaha i SHUD be in school now.. but i'm NOT!

english:
the lady seems nice, but as everyone has said, boring. but she seems like she knows what she's doing and she'll get us to ap, which is what matters i guess. i dunno, i've always liked english. and sometimes it comes naturally 2 me, but sometimes i get TOO laid back, and that's when i get screwed. but i mean, why is it SO important neway. i don't get it. i mean, i get y math is, but i mean.. unless if u wanna be a journalist or something, i dunno y there's such an obsession wit it. science seems much more imp. sorry goin on a tangent. but i like the class cuz there's liz, rachel, lawrence, sunil, and anand in it. it's one of the classes where it's definitely mixed wit the nerdy ppl and the.. not ? i duno.. i'll let u decide which category i fall under.

us history:
yeah he's already called me the "mistake by the lake" lol and the whole class laughed at me : / it's my parents fault we lived in cleveland.. ok... newayy it's already managed 2 bore me and i alreayd feel overwhelmed. i'll take the blame 4 it, it was probably my fault, cuz i didn't follow through wit the readin assignment, so i was kinda lost in class 1/2 the time, but still- how does he expect us 2 get all that reading done?!?! even peter fell asleep and that says something...

chem:
i'm glad 2 back wit ms swanson [yes i still feel partially guilty 4 giving up ap chem- just 4 that strategies 4 college success class, which bein in ib is practically preparin u 4 college, but still..yeah... but i'm kinda glad i did, cuz i dunno if i wud be able 2 handle it wit ap bio. i duno if i shuda just sticked wit ap chem and social anth. o well, guess we'll never know... but the environment was already laid back and relaxed [besides that test..] and since it's not ap, i can tell we're gonna have time 2 just do nonsense and crap. good times. small class tho. ms swanson is really nice tho...

spanish:
see, i like mrs halcomb herself. she's a very nice, lively lady. u don't ever feel really bored in her class or nething. it's just the gradin itself is hard/strict. but i mean, it's gonna be like the ap. so yeah. i like her tho. and everyone is in that class, so it shudn't be like last year. and it's mostly ppl from our grade, actually, which is also nice.

bio:
well not much 2 say since he's not there. but i really hope he has changed his teaching style. i HATE bein the ones to be experimented on, especially on this class. last year, gov.. whatever, don't care about that class, but i mean, bio actually counts.. we'll see, had fun in there, yeah- not much work accomplished tho. i mean, mr morone, himself, is a great guy, but anyone who had bio wit him freshman year can explain what im tryin 2 say..

pre cal:
i feel dumb already. how is that possibly, i already feel lost in math. and it's not even ap calculus or nething. i just need 2 review and look at the book and not expect everything 2 come 2 me naturally. i mean, i guess that's y we're IN school. but i mean, i think i can get an a in there. mr power is nice. like the bloke [i wish i had a british accent]

so that was this week, in a nutshell. what can i say. not much else i guess. i hope this weekend is accomplished, but fun.

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spinoangel

:: 2004 13 August :: 4.19pm

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i dont think i can get this entry right to the way i like it. i dont know what to say or how to say it.

how to express how shitty i feel just because school makes me miserable. i mean its the first fucking week and i'm already bursting into tears when i get home. i dont understand how i can be so weak, so sensitive, it just makes me cry MORE because its like what the hell am i doing? i'm dragging myself down and i can't stop. it's as if i have some masochistic desire to feel the tears running down my face. my brain must be a little screwed up to make me feel so bad that i can't face the world anymore.

just as long as i never pick up the sharp objects, i'll be okay.

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boricuababy

:: 2004 12 August :: 6.34pm
:: Mood: smiley
:: Music: I Want it That Way-BSB

lol..amy and her old skoo songs..
the bus was really funny today..we listened to old music..thot bout the old days..i miss being little..no drama back then..stratch that..yea there was..but none i had to deal with..lol..newayysss..second day of skoolio!!
i'm beginning to love it..:D

u.s history: there's alotta people in that class..i can already tell itz gonna be boring as hell but i got my amycita right next to me to keep me company!!..:)..and both ashley's are in there with me too..and caitlin and a bunch of other people..so its all good

trig: wow..what a class!! that's gonna be fun..everyyybodyyy is in there..cept my amara!!..:(..i think its gonna be a fun class..all my buddies are in there..lots of socializing..dr. baum is cool too..so far..dont wanna jinx it..lol

biology: this class is pretty small..but amara's in there..so im happy..so is val and rach..and katherine too..i hope morone jr got better with his teaching skills..it seems like he's more prepared..:/..hope it turns out good..

social anth: sam's in this one too..:D..we did pretty good with classes this year..mr davis is ok..not like other ppl sed he was like..carlos and amy r in here too..

spanish: this class is gonna be really fun too..everyybodyy's in this one too..it sucks we're gonna have mrs levine as a sub for two weeks tho

driver's ed: ally's my driving buddy!!..lol..that shudd be fun..can't wait

english: schilit's on the iffy side..she calls us "chickie poo"..lol..yea..weirdd..

my luches worked out for me too..so im straight for that..hope this year is a good one!! and i hope it goes by fast..x0x0

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alwaysfalling

:: 2004 11 August :: 10.04pm
:: Mood: exhausted

just shoot me. please.
i hate this year already.

things that made me happy:
tina in lunch
driving to and from school
taco bell.

that's it. i miss last year.

<3

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sameen

:: 2004 11 August :: 6.43pm

Today was the first day of school [*take not of subject]. I mean, I guess it all right. US History has already managed to bore me, but Mr. Hall seems like a good teacher- at least he knows what he's doing. He said last year he had an 87% passing rate, that's pretty damn good. But there's a lotta people in my class, so that'll make up for it, if it does in actuality turn out to be boring. Then was Spanish. It was fun too, cuz EVERYONE is in our class. Going over the handbook was kinda boring tho. I have second lunch.. both days, I think [500's in second lunch, right?]. Mrs Halcomb is nice, but SUCH a stickler for the rules and her class itself is hard. But, I guess the way she grades is how the AP grades, so it's no good havin another teacher who lets u slide, but then u don't pass the AP. Lunch was all right. Some child thought I was a freshman- I do NOT look like a freshman. What an insult. It's switched now.. freshman year people thought I was a junior and this year people r gonna think I'm a freshman. Anyway, then was Pre Cal- it was all right. I mean, Mr Power seems nice and I don't think I'm gonna have THAT much of a hard time gettin an A, most people I know got A's last year.. It was nice goin to school late tho. I think I made a mistake by dropping AP Chem tho. I feel really.. guilty, I dunno y. I'll talk to Ms. Swanson tomorrow. Tomorrow's English, Chem, and Bio. Great, sciences BACK 2 BACK. I think odd days my worst class will be Spanish and even Biology. Well I'm off to do HOMEWORK [how dumb.. on the first day..should be used to it, after last 2 years tho.. ]

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alwaysfalling

:: 2004 10 August :: 9.37pm
:: Mood: nostalgic
:: Music: r.e.m. - nightswimming

i'll do anything for another couple of days with you

man. i loved this summer, i'm going to miss it so much. i loved the boredom, those fine boys, my summer lovin, my big family vacation on the beach in north carolina, sleepovers with tina, trip to orlando, concerts, the beach... just everything. i'd do anything for a few more days or a whole month.

on better news, other than school, the pimp mobile is now on the road and will be coming to a neighborhood near you as soon as possible. just call danielle on the cell and she'll pay you a visit since she got a really asian job today that will pay her $7 an hour, because i just rock, which means like $500 dollars a month so we can have fuuun. rock the universe here we come.

<3

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boricuababy

:: 2004 10 August :: 6.42pm
:: Mood: happy

my sammi is hereeeeeee!!!
we just finished that frickin bio packet!!..finally!!..took a lil while..but we got thru it!! thank u sammi for ur help!! wuv uuuuu!!

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boricuababy

:: 2004 10 August :: 12.52pm
:: Mood: bored
:: Music: Lean Back (Remix)

last day of summer (it shudd be fun and exciting right??)
nope..lol..im here trying to do some of that bio stuff..not working tho..lol..listening to some music..i found my book..lol..it was in tatie's house..i took it to the pool..and it got all wet..lol..dont kno how tho..neways..i havent been reading that..oh well..sam q called me today..she said happy birthday..:)..i talked to her for a bit..now im here..bored and hungry..i think sammi's coming over to help me with the bio packet..damn i cant believe how fast summer went by..itz gone..lol..i guess im kinda looking foward to school..only for the socializing part tho..lol.. see you guys 2moro!!..x0x0

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playmate101

:: 2004 9 August :: 11.24pm
:: Mood: groggy

i went to nikki's last night! <3
it was supposed to be a cheerleading get 2gether... however that's not how it ended up. me, chelsea, nikki & angie were the only ones from the team. then i met Sam Conn who went to WMS, and met megan kristen & katilyn. nikki's house was COMPLETELY empty cause she hadda move out the next day... well... we decided to throw a party with her dad's permission... of course he didn't care. there hadda be 200 kids there according to her dad. omg it was awesome. chelsea n i walking down the street & chelsea throwing a backhand spring while drunk lmao. then being out back n having a cart wheel contest... all three of us = chelsea, me, & lil bella all falling on our asses lol. omg we had so much fun... but then chelsea passing out on the bed & people started making out on the bed... not knowing she was already sleeping in it lmao. sucked that everyone got kicked out kinda early like around 12:30 ish cause the neighbors were threatening to call the cops. and then... Rodrigo being drunk and keith, me, and angie being hungry lol. i hadda blast. i felt bad for angie cause she didn't look like she was having fun. SET! lmao chelsea. dancing with nikki n sam was fun too. but the argument btwn katilyn and nikki was outrageous. but we went to bed around 4am and nikki's dad woke us up around 7am. damn it. we cleaned up and got donuts and then sam's bro picked up me, sam, chelsea, and kristen. i can't believe kristen doesn't remember falling off the bed when nikki pushed her off lmao. but we just hung out and ate food at sam's. then johvan and derek came over. hung out... showered... my mom picked me up around 3:30pm. chelsea, kristen, and sam were gonna go get trashed at the drive thru, and invited me... but i was supposed to go shopping at the mall... but my mother was too tired. damn it. but whatever. that ended my summer just the way i wanted it, although i feel bad considering what jonah probably thinks of me. idk why it matters, but he's always kept me outta trouble. until now... but we're even. he got messed up, so did i. ha. anyways... time for bed... night night. soooo tired. xoxo

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boricuababy

:: 2004 9 August :: 3.44pm
:: Mood: cracking up!!
:: Music: Should of Known Better-Monica

lmao....
well it was a nice bright sunny morning this morning..so we were gonna go to christie's pool..china wanted to go because she leaves tonight..so we got all ready..it was about 9-ish this morning..right when we went out the door..it started pouring raininggg..like pouring..lol..so chi got pissed and went outside in the backyard..so i went outside with her..then talia followed us..so the three of us were out there just messing around in the rain..lol..i felt like a little kid playing in the rain..then we started playing hand games..like numbers and all those other lil games we used to play when we were little..lol..and we were doing this while it was pouring raining..lol..it was fun..then it stopped raining and we went to the pool..we had fun over there to0..we raced each other in the pool and played water tag..then chicken..i won in chicken..that's my game right there..i always win..lol..so now im home..juss chillan..bout to jump in the shower..we just got home from the pool..talk to all u guys laterrrr..luv u..x0x0

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boricuababy

:: 2004 8 August :: 8.39pm
:: Mood: ecstatic
:: Music: My Place-Nelly

my party really DID turn out to be "off tha chain"..lol
ayyy..i had such a great time at the party last nite..im soo0o0o happy all you guys were able to come..it meant alot to me that you guys celebrated my special day with meEe..:D..i hope u guys had as much fun as i did..thank you all for my gifts to0..they were greattt..im waiting on all the pictures that were taken..the picz from the digi cam came out really cute tho..but my dad took 4 rolls of film..so i wanna see those..wowww..i had soo much fun..i cant get over it..lol..we partied hard..the DJ played all my music..he did good..gotta give him props..he played baby got back..lol..that was hilarious..my mom got kinda crazy..but thatz how she always is..meli and eric were soo cute together..lol..my dad was a little on the tipsy side.,but he did good..he didnt embarrass me too much..except when he cut in on me and emir's dance..did any body catch that??..lol..sameen-my mommy thinks your a really nice guy..lol..she told me to tell u that..sammi im so happy u danced..lol..the party took a lil while to get pumped up..but after me meli and ricarda started dancing and then junito and shawn got there it started poppin off..briana-my cousin likes youuu..lol..he's a player though..lol..but yea i had soo much fun..me n meli got to dance to our song..Obsession..then we all made a big circle..and danced to all these sean paul songs..lol..and tried doin all the dances from the videos..haha..that was greatt..we did really good tho..lol..my cousins were actin a fool..they're really koo tho..WE DID THE CHA-CHA SLIDEEEE...that was hott..then the electric slide..lol..and the macarena..carlos got down to that one..my feet were killinggg me way before the night was over..so i took off my shoes..so did every1 else..lol..then when i danced salsa with junito..he wanted to lead..so i sed ok..then he frickin killed my toe..omg..lol..but we had alotta fun..i didnt get to have my own cake..:(..that was the only downside..lol..but i think there's leftovers..so i needa look for it..lol..what else??..i read the picture everyone sgined last nite..you guys all wrote really nice things..i appreciate it..i was supposed to give everyone a picture..but with all the running around i forgot..i will definately give them to you guys at school..thanks again for coming i hope you had as much fun as i did!!..love you guys!!..x0x0

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alwaysfalling

:: 2004 6 August :: 5.10pm
:: Mood: tired
:: Music: rooney - popstars

these are the words of the popstars.

i swear, i can't say it enough but i just can't do the whole kid thing. they just drive me crazy. my parents keep telling me that it is different when they are your own kids, which i totally understand, but i don't know, i'm weird. so i've been watching my little cousin, emily, a five year old. she talks back to me and does that whole, "you're not my boss" thing and then i get angry with her and tell her to not say it again and she says something like, "i don't even want to be next to you" and then she ends up hurting my feelings. just can't do it. only two more days of watching her though. thank goodness.

got my decal and locker today. saw no one. excited for school? no. i'm excited about kailannie's party tomorrow night, i'll see a lot of people i have missed over these past couple of months, plus tina lent me clothing so that i will look ready for the club.

my brother came back this week from his job in new york and seemed like he has a changed a little. he came home the first day and was like, "you want to go shopping?" then yesterday we were sitting around and he was playing a cd that had konstantine on it. i was just like, "woah... who are you?" he still parties though and whatever, but hey, he's going to uf in a week or so.

i'm done. enjoy your last summer weekend!

<3

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boricuababy

:: 2004 6 August :: 2.41pm
:: Mood: amused
:: Music: Dirrrrrrrrrrrrty-Christina Aguilera

my mouth is filled with peanut butter...
right now im eatin a peanut butter, banana, n marshmellow sandwich..my cousin natalia is typing this 4 me cause im eatin..lol..anyways im so hyped about my partayyyyy...when my mom gets home from work imma go get my nails did..gettin acrylics..:D..yesterday i ran into my buddy Carlos while i was gettin my locker and my schedule changed..my locker is number 136 in the 400 hall..carlos got 137..im all tha way on tha bottom..grrness..neways the whole crew is kinda near each other so thatz koo..i cuddnt get into history 6th hour..so i kept it for 1st and now i have drivers ed 6th period..not that bad..i can't wait till tomorrow!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! c all u soon..much lovee!!..x0x0

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