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2004 28 August :: 1.46pm
:: Mood: hard working
:: Music: running- No Doubt
i think this song can best sum up my emotions right now.
Run
Running all the time
Running to the future
With you right by my side
Me
I'm the one you chose
Out of all the people
You wanted me the most
I'm so sorry that I've fallen
Help me up lets keep on running
Don't let me fall out of love
Running, running
As fast as we can
Do you think we'll make it?
(Do you think we'll make it?)
We're running
Keep holding my hand
It's so we don't get separated
Be
Be the one I need
Be the one I trust most
Don't stop inspiring me
Sometimes it's hard to keep on running
We work so much to keep it going
Don't make me want to give up
Running, running
As fast as we can
I really hope you make it
(Do you think we'll make it?)
We're running
Keep holding my hand
It's so we don't get separated
Running
As fast as we can
I really hope we’ll make it
(Do you think we'll make it?)
We're running
Keep holding my hand
It's so we don't get separated
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2004 27 August :: 6.20pm
:: Mood: giggly
:: Music: This Love-Maroone 5
re-cap of the week..
Monday: umm can't remember that far back but i kno i had practice..lol
Tuesday: lol..me n sam had fun in math..we took our test..n we were just our crazy selves..lol..saw wagums before driver's ed..and he gave me a really big hug..:)..lol..had practice after school..paid for new uniforms that are gonna be soo cute!! can't wait!!
Wednesday: had my lil incident occur..alwaysss me..lol..practice was canceled for whatever reason..???..went to key club...everyyyy body was there..lol..sameen made his lil remark.."u shudd be able to hear with them big ass ears of urs!!"..lmao..wow sameen..it's definately flapping ears!!..played that weird game.."where u at??-IN MY PANTS!!"
Thursday: frickin DBQ in first hour..i seriously had NO clue what i was writing about..but it was a good day in general..i had practice..we started stretchin on the football field where the band ppl were..saw sam n rachel doing there thing..at colorgaurd..lol..then we moved to the other field cuz it was blazing hot!!..so we practiced with the football players..lol..that was funny..niche got hit wid a football and flipped out..lol..the flipping out was the funny part..then i saw wagums and him tracey and preston came over and started cheering with us..that was funny too..after i got home wagums called me up..we talked for about 2 hours!!..about everything..just catching up..that was a good day
Friday: today was a funny day..people had a great time crackin on me..i was in my uniform for cheerleading all day..we did the announcements..i personally think we looked so stupid!!..sam said i had one of those smiles that takes up my entire face..lol..i hadda be spirited!!..lol..so i missed the end of history which was great..me maryellen and amara committed suicide and died in bio..lol..that was hilarious!! u had to be there..u kno how the bio lab tables have those sockets??..we were soo bored...so maryellen was being funny and shoved her pen into the socket..amara thot it was funny and did it in hers..so i was in the middle..and got the "shock" too..lol..yea..that's us for u..lol..in spanish..nothing too exciting happened..failed the verbs quiz..but i dont care..lol..what else is new??..lol..i so hate that class..but sam keeps me sane..lol..lunch nothing too much happened..english..woo..definately went delirious in there no lie..my new word is kumquat!!..lol..sp??..oh well..i love that word!!..i got the we dont approve talk on the bus..lol..i need to work on that..and i finally sent that text message!!
all in all it was a FANTABOLOUS week..another new word..hehe..now i got a shit load of homework to do..lol..err..IB..lol
AMY: i'm gonna go back to my bullying days and kick his ass for you!!..lol..dont worry we all hate him and have ur back..love u!!
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2004 24 August :: 6.51pm
:: Mood: thoughtful
:: Music: scandalous
i've been thinking..
1. school's been treating me well. junior year isn't as bad as i thought it'd be. i know it'll most likeyl get harder. but i worked myself up for worse things. i guess that's good..?
2. i love my friends. they're great. i got a little reminder of that on monday. you know who you are. (note: i always think it though!)
3. thanks guys for the compliments on my new hair. it helped...
this week is going well. i really don't feel like writing about it though. too tired/ lazy.
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2004 24 August :: 3.08pm
:: Mood: energetic
:: Music: ..0nlyy 0ne -->> yeLL0wcaRdD..
. y0u are my 0nlyy 0ne .
me nd miKe's 2 m0nthsz was satuRdayy .. it was g00dD. we g0t a m0vie nd juss hung 0ut nd spent l0tsz 0f tiime wit each 0ther. went upp t0 hiLLsb0r0 miLe nd spent sum tiime at the beach then went t0 spRingsz nd came back d0wn nd st0ppedD at the gun range. l0l, he's lyke addictedD t0 gunnsz. we hung 0ut all weekendD. even th0 s0metiimesz we dun relle d0 nethiing but juss hang 0ut hiis h0use, we have s0o much funn. i've never felt s0o c0mf0rtable wit a guyy that i lyke. i feel lyke he's everyythiing f0r me. i cant believe that even f0r a sec0ndD, i wantedD t0 sayy n0 wen he askedD me 0ut. i dunn0 wut made me change my mindD but thank g0d i didD. l0l, yea, all my entriiesz are b0ut hiim .. i kn0w. but he's ALWAYYSZ 0n my miindD. sch00l aiint asz badD asz i th0ught it was guna be. it's all g00dD. newh0, shyt isz the same. n0 drama wit n0 0ne at the m0ment. yAy. 0hh yeaa, nd i hung 0ut wit atHena f0r a lil 0n fRidayy. she isz the shyt. haha <33. that's b0ut it. can't wait till fRidayy .. better c0me upp quick. i'm 0nj my REGG .. uGhh. LATER H0ESZ.
there's juss n0 0ne that gets me lyke y0u d0
<3 y0u are my 0nly, my 0nly 0ne <3
x'sz ndD 0'sz t0 all my best gurlsz .. eRin.jAx.jeNny.liTa.kaTie.chRistie. <33
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2004 22 August :: 7.07pm
:: Mood: content
weekend...
*sigh* i've been too busy playing with livejournal to update this one. actually i have been too busy updating in general that is always a bad sign. Whenever im fucking around on these things are times i should eithe rbe doing homework or pretending that i actually have a life of some kind.
went to the movies last nite slept thru friday night and then my grandparents came over today. After they left i took the money they gave me and went out in search of the garden state soundtrack. i found it NOWHERE. but i did get to take the car and drive around even if i did stay within 15 minutes of my house. i love having the car to myself and i was actually fine. well...minus one near fiasco in a certain parking lot. no one woulda been hurt just a car but eh....ha i think i will keep that one my little secret. lol my god women really can't drive i wish i could do a study on it.
oh yeah psych test tomorrow and a whole assload of other stuff to get done. i better stop with this. love to all...
~Jess~
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2004 22 August :: 6.05pm
:: Mood: crackin up
:: Music: Holla Back-Fabolous
"do u kno the muffin man??"
the muffin man?? THE MUFFIN MANNN!! haha..lmao..funny stuff..that was friday's inside joke along with ma-paches..lol..rachel's partayy was so much funn..i hadda good time..lotz of dancingg..we did a weird version of the cha cha slide tho..lol..didnt like it..but the electric slide..i definately rocked that..lol..it started off wid some rap n hip hop then it went into spanish music then rock..lol..me sam carlos n amara jumping around..haha..that was greatt..then they played some techno stuff..it was a koo party..i left around 11 sumthin..my aunt got lost..lol..but it was fun..the weekend was pretty good..x0x0
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2004 22 August :: 12.45pm
:: Mood: hjdbsvjbh
:: Music: scat man
OMG!! MY HAIR IS GONE!!
she def. cut it shorter than i wanted it. :(. i do not like it at all. i just keep telling myself it'll grow back. heh.
anyhoo, Exorcist was a good movie. scary in the sense that it jumps out at you a lot. and the possessed lady had a creepy face. but it didnt give me nightmares lol.
Rachel's party was a lotta fun!! danced the whole night away. good people, good music, good times.
thats all for now. xoxo.
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2004 21 August :: 11.01am
Everyone had moved on the livejournal. I feel guilty for not using this. But I like woohu. I think everyone has moved onto livejournal besides Kaila and Sam ?
Well after getting sort of a pattern for school, it feels a bit better. But I don't wanna focus on anything negative in this entry. School's great cuz I get to see all the familar faces... that part is awesome. I have friends in ALL my classes. And even if I don't, I have the ability 2 make new friends and not be resistant 2 change. It'll be ok. There r worse things than this. And I really do like some of the subjects. I like learning- just the test/quiz aspect of it. But u know, life is all about becomin a better person and broadening your horizons, and yeah.. we'll never be finished wit that, but why not strive. If no one's with me, then I guess it's me against the world.. and that ok :D
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2004 20 August :: 6.40pm
:: Mood: happy--really good mood.
:: Music: sunshine - its my new song
WUSSUP HOME FRIES?!?!
its been a while since i updated. hmmm...
tuesday: had a long convo with amy on the bus. signed up for dance. talked to carlos for a long time.
wednesday: i dont recall anything special happening.. sorry
thursday: those spanish quizzes can kiss my bootay. english wasnt that bad. but i learned that schilit has a cat named Samantha Susan, nicknamed Sammi Sue. yeah-n she thought of that when i told her i wanted to be called sam. weirdo. then a long chat with amara and amy.
friday(today): was a good/funny day. it brought up the whole week. in ceramics we just made tiles. math- "do you know the muffin man? the muffin man? THE MUFFIN MAN!" lmao. thats me and kaila's new line.
sam: "i thought of a way to remember the name for raccoon in spanish. you know how its mapache?"
Kaila: yeah..
Sam: ::uses hand gestures:: you know how they have patches around their eyes?
Kaila: yeah.
Sam: ::still using hand gestures w/ a funny face:: just say " ma-paches"
lmao. that was great. although amy didnt think so. then dr. baum thinking i have a mustache. and the whole class staring at me. lol. lunch- kaila's a bully. jk. jk. you had to be there. social anth- i dont think anything happened. but im kinda excited about the observation thingy. bio- took a quiz that ashley and logan freaked me out on. got a 70- not too bad. paid attention/ talked to amy. bus- made fun of davis and his neck. lol. "sam youre gonna be 16!" WRONG. lol. then i went to kaila's picked out her outfit for tomorrow. did a bunch of quizzes and read through a magazine. watched music videos. crossing my eyes like the cat then freaking out. lmao. fun stuff man. then amara called a lil bit ago to ask if i wanted to see the Exorcist. i got approved. im excited/ scared. lol. then when i got home, there were these two repair guys. well the older one was like 50-60's age range. so i said hi and everything and walked inside. so later, my dad comes in, and i ask, "why did you say, 'thats my fucking daughter'?" turns out that he was a nasty old man. gross. if you get what i mean. my dad was pisseddd. thank god he's gone.
tomorrow's rachel's partay! looking forward to that. but now i gotta go eat before i go. later homies. xoxo.
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2004 20 August :: 4.40pm
yay friday
oh man ashley...fucking rocks lol that girl made me the best half birthday present ever. haha she didn't have anything to make a cake so she took rice krispy treats and and candy and footlong fruit rollups and made them look like sushi. who does that? i don't know but it was still awesome. lol lemmie alone that was seriously the high point of my day.
thank god im only taking dance for one semester i can't stand the mixed classes. grr
i fucked up that spanish verb tense quiz and i got a 70 on the bio quiz but i feel better about those now because i know what to expect and i don't think they are worth a lot anyway.
not much else has been going on i want to take the car and get out of the house for a bit this weekend even if i just go somewhere by myself i just need some space. space outside of the confines of my house and school. maybe i will go to the mall and see chub if shes working or get liz a bday present idk. someone should meet me there and we'll hang out. or maybe ill make jimmy finally show me his damn pictures from europe i just remembered he hasnt. bah
my social life....i give up...seriously i've got plenty of friends to talk to and enough close friends who id trust with my life if need be. if there's some guy out there who is right for me and can actually put up with me and care about me like no one has been able to thus far...then he will find me. ive tried for too long to force what wasnt meant to be with all the wrong guys so im giving up on my better judgement and letting life take me where it will....im interested to see how all that turns out.
oh yeah unrelated topic...talked to Dom last night out of nowhere that kid just pops up at weird fucking times in my life.
i'm so over the bus seriously...just give me my damn car. I rode it for like the 1st time this year and the freshman just grrr they are probably sophmores but w/e they are all freshman to me. there's a couple juniors to keep me sane but still. lol tony tried to be funny and jack Dane Cook's shit today but he got shut down lol i know that cd by heart.
yes well im gunna go be lazy and enjoy the weekend.
<3
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2004 19 August :: 9.18pm
:: Mood: busy
:: Music: Baby ft. P Diddy- Do That
I think all my entries for like.. a year now r gonna be about how much work school is and how badly is sucks- sorry in advance
I seriously start at 4:30/5 and work until about 10/11 at night. [Obviously wit the necessary breaks..] I dunno, I think it's cuz I have my computer on/music playing. Maybe tomorrow I'll try without the music/computer on- wait, scrath that, tomorrow's Friday, I'm NOT workin that hard on a Friday. Some of the classes rn't that bad though. [English, Chem, and surpringly Bio]. History and Spsanish sucks major ass. History, just cuz it's boring. I have no clue what 2 expect 4 the test ?! so I gotta read this weekend and get up 2 date on everything in that class. Spanish- it's just a hard course. And I'm confused in Pre Cal [not sounding conceited, but..], which I rarely ever struggle in MATH. What's up with that? I dunno, it just feels like I'm runnin a race wit the clock whenever I get home. Can u believe these two girls in my Bio class were like.. DISAPPOINTED/WORRIED we didn't get any homework?!
But I'm glad it's Friday tomorrow. Then I get TWO WHOLE DAYS to do homework- just kidding! Rachel's party, and I wanna go 2 the movies.. I WILL go the movies. Good stuff.
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2004 19 August :: 8.34pm
:: Mood: disappointed
:: Music: Dreaming of You-Selena
this year is nothing like what i thought it was gonna start off like..
we've been in school no more than a little more than a week and i've already been hit wid so much crap that i dunno what to do with it all..it's so frustrating and stressful..and it's not only school stuff..family is playing a big part in all this too..my mom and i have talked a couple of times already about getting out of IB..i completely went against everything she was saying..i love ATL..u all kno that..just check out my bag..lol..and everybody's at ATL..so i dont wanna leave...and i was so looking foward to cheering on varsity this year too..but it's all kinda headed the opposite way..my mom said if by the end of 1st quarter..if i have any C's or D's shez pulling me out whether i like it or not..my whole thing about it all is that i dont wanna regret it in the long run and i dont wanna feel like i've wasted the past two years of my life..u kno??..and im thinking i made it this far..why not keep going??..but it goes deeper than that..family issues..blah blah blah..it's hard to understand..i know my mom is just lookin out for me but shez juss throwing all this crap at me at once..so it makes it all even more stressful..if i did get out..i'd have to go to Olympic..i REALLY dont wanna go there..i'd rather go to West Boca..but i dont even wanna get out..i do but i dont..i wanna have a life..i DONT wanna leave all my friends..especially sam amara sameen n amy..i wanna be able to get into UF..i dont wanna stay up really late doing homework every night..i dunno..maybe im making a big deal outta it..but im confused and i need to get my priorities straight
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2004 18 August :: 6.26pm
:: Music: jealous sound - "recovery room"
sometimes i wonder
if people can see the welling in my eyes
if they can sense the tenseness in my face
if they know how much i want to go away
if they feel me drifting far off into myself
if they can hear my heart as it falls to the ground
if they know how much i love/miss them
i wonder what could happen if i could just end it all ? is there a place called heaven, or would i just go be reincarnated and start hell on earth all over again, but this time even worse? my life is great, ya know? it really is. i just don't feel great. so many times in the day i feel more like an outsider than i have in all of high school. you think that wouldnt happen since it's junior year, but its true. i don't see my friends, and when i do, i can't truly enjoy my time with them. the only thing i look forward to during the day is going home with danielle. if not for that, i'd be sobbing into greta's shoulder everyday. but that doesnt sound too bad every now and then either. it's simply asinine and unnecessary for me to put myself down and feel like crap all the time. but i dont know. i cant help it.
just forget everything that i said and wash out the wounds.
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2004 17 August :: 8.26pm
:: Mood: depressed
i am sooo fricken stressed out right nowwww
i need somebody to talk to other than my mom..and either everyonez away or people arent on..:(..guess imma hafta wait..itz no biggie
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2004 16 August :: 11.23pm
:: Mood: wound up
hey guys. im back.
i was doing history reading and for some odd reason my mind decides to drift. i dunno why it would do that- i mean those readings are so interesting. lol. anyhow, i realized that i def.overreacted today with the whole dress code thing. but it was just one thing after another. so im sorry for my behavior and all the complaining i did. which i know there was A LOT of. but i also wanna thank you for listeing and putting up with me. it was greatly appreciated. i feel like a drama queen. lol.
<3
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