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spinoangel

:: 2004 13 August :: 4.19pm

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i dont think i can get this entry right to the way i like it. i dont know what to say or how to say it.

how to express how shitty i feel just because school makes me miserable. i mean its the first fucking week and i'm already bursting into tears when i get home. i dont understand how i can be so weak, so sensitive, it just makes me cry MORE because its like what the hell am i doing? i'm dragging myself down and i can't stop. it's as if i have some masochistic desire to feel the tears running down my face. my brain must be a little screwed up to make me feel so bad that i can't face the world anymore.

just as long as i never pick up the sharp objects, i'll be okay.

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boricuababy

:: 2004 12 August :: 6.34pm
:: Mood: smiley
:: Music: I Want it That Way-BSB

lol..amy and her old skoo songs..
the bus was really funny today..we listened to old music..thot bout the old days..i miss being little..no drama back then..stratch that..yea there was..but none i had to deal with..lol..newayysss..second day of skoolio!!
i'm beginning to love it..:D

u.s history: there's alotta people in that class..i can already tell itz gonna be boring as hell but i got my amycita right next to me to keep me company!!..:)..and both ashley's are in there with me too..and caitlin and a bunch of other people..so its all good

trig: wow..what a class!! that's gonna be fun..everyyybodyyy is in there..cept my amara!!..:(..i think its gonna be a fun class..all my buddies are in there..lots of socializing..dr. baum is cool too..so far..dont wanna jinx it..lol

biology: this class is pretty small..but amara's in there..so im happy..so is val and rach..and katherine too..i hope morone jr got better with his teaching skills..it seems like he's more prepared..:/..hope it turns out good..

social anth: sam's in this one too..:D..we did pretty good with classes this year..mr davis is ok..not like other ppl sed he was like..carlos and amy r in here too..

spanish: this class is gonna be really fun too..everyybodyy's in this one too..it sucks we're gonna have mrs levine as a sub for two weeks tho

driver's ed: ally's my driving buddy!!..lol..that shudd be fun..can't wait

english: schilit's on the iffy side..she calls us "chickie poo"..lol..yea..weirdd..

my luches worked out for me too..so im straight for that..hope this year is a good one!! and i hope it goes by fast..x0x0

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alwaysfalling

:: 2004 11 August :: 10.04pm
:: Mood: exhausted

just shoot me. please.
i hate this year already.

things that made me happy:
tina in lunch
driving to and from school
taco bell.

that's it. i miss last year.

<3

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sameen

:: 2004 11 August :: 6.43pm

Today was the first day of school [*take not of subject]. I mean, I guess it all right. US History has already managed to bore me, but Mr. Hall seems like a good teacher- at least he knows what he's doing. He said last year he had an 87% passing rate, that's pretty damn good. But there's a lotta people in my class, so that'll make up for it, if it does in actuality turn out to be boring. Then was Spanish. It was fun too, cuz EVERYONE is in our class. Going over the handbook was kinda boring tho. I have second lunch.. both days, I think [500's in second lunch, right?]. Mrs Halcomb is nice, but SUCH a stickler for the rules and her class itself is hard. But, I guess the way she grades is how the AP grades, so it's no good havin another teacher who lets u slide, but then u don't pass the AP. Lunch was all right. Some child thought I was a freshman- I do NOT look like a freshman. What an insult. It's switched now.. freshman year people thought I was a junior and this year people r gonna think I'm a freshman. Anyway, then was Pre Cal- it was all right. I mean, Mr Power seems nice and I don't think I'm gonna have THAT much of a hard time gettin an A, most people I know got A's last year.. It was nice goin to school late tho. I think I made a mistake by dropping AP Chem tho. I feel really.. guilty, I dunno y. I'll talk to Ms. Swanson tomorrow. Tomorrow's English, Chem, and Bio. Great, sciences BACK 2 BACK. I think odd days my worst class will be Spanish and even Biology. Well I'm off to do HOMEWORK [how dumb.. on the first day..should be used to it, after last 2 years tho.. ]

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alwaysfalling

:: 2004 10 August :: 9.37pm
:: Mood: nostalgic
:: Music: r.e.m. - nightswimming

i'll do anything for another couple of days with you

man. i loved this summer, i'm going to miss it so much. i loved the boredom, those fine boys, my summer lovin, my big family vacation on the beach in north carolina, sleepovers with tina, trip to orlando, concerts, the beach... just everything. i'd do anything for a few more days or a whole month.

on better news, other than school, the pimp mobile is now on the road and will be coming to a neighborhood near you as soon as possible. just call danielle on the cell and she'll pay you a visit since she got a really asian job today that will pay her $7 an hour, because i just rock, which means like $500 dollars a month so we can have fuuun. rock the universe here we come.

<3

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boricuababy

:: 2004 10 August :: 6.42pm
:: Mood: happy

my sammi is hereeeeeee!!!
we just finished that frickin bio packet!!..finally!!..took a lil while..but we got thru it!! thank u sammi for ur help!! wuv uuuuu!!

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boricuababy

:: 2004 10 August :: 12.52pm
:: Mood: bored
:: Music: Lean Back (Remix)

last day of summer (it shudd be fun and exciting right??)
nope..lol..im here trying to do some of that bio stuff..not working tho..lol..listening to some music..i found my book..lol..it was in tatie's house..i took it to the pool..and it got all wet..lol..dont kno how tho..neways..i havent been reading that..oh well..sam q called me today..she said happy birthday..:)..i talked to her for a bit..now im here..bored and hungry..i think sammi's coming over to help me with the bio packet..damn i cant believe how fast summer went by..itz gone..lol..i guess im kinda looking foward to school..only for the socializing part tho..lol.. see you guys 2moro!!..x0x0

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playmate101

:: 2004 9 August :: 11.24pm
:: Mood: groggy

i went to nikki's last night! <3
it was supposed to be a cheerleading get 2gether... however that's not how it ended up. me, chelsea, nikki & angie were the only ones from the team. then i met Sam Conn who went to WMS, and met megan kristen & katilyn. nikki's house was COMPLETELY empty cause she hadda move out the next day... well... we decided to throw a party with her dad's permission... of course he didn't care. there hadda be 200 kids there according to her dad. omg it was awesome. chelsea n i walking down the street & chelsea throwing a backhand spring while drunk lmao. then being out back n having a cart wheel contest... all three of us = chelsea, me, & lil bella all falling on our asses lol. omg we had so much fun... but then chelsea passing out on the bed & people started making out on the bed... not knowing she was already sleeping in it lmao. sucked that everyone got kicked out kinda early like around 12:30 ish cause the neighbors were threatening to call the cops. and then... Rodrigo being drunk and keith, me, and angie being hungry lol. i hadda blast. i felt bad for angie cause she didn't look like she was having fun. SET! lmao chelsea. dancing with nikki n sam was fun too. but the argument btwn katilyn and nikki was outrageous. but we went to bed around 4am and nikki's dad woke us up around 7am. damn it. we cleaned up and got donuts and then sam's bro picked up me, sam, chelsea, and kristen. i can't believe kristen doesn't remember falling off the bed when nikki pushed her off lmao. but we just hung out and ate food at sam's. then johvan and derek came over. hung out... showered... my mom picked me up around 3:30pm. chelsea, kristen, and sam were gonna go get trashed at the drive thru, and invited me... but i was supposed to go shopping at the mall... but my mother was too tired. damn it. but whatever. that ended my summer just the way i wanted it, although i feel bad considering what jonah probably thinks of me. idk why it matters, but he's always kept me outta trouble. until now... but we're even. he got messed up, so did i. ha. anyways... time for bed... night night. soooo tired. xoxo

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boricuababy

:: 2004 9 August :: 3.44pm
:: Mood: cracking up!!
:: Music: Should of Known Better-Monica

lmao....
well it was a nice bright sunny morning this morning..so we were gonna go to christie's pool..china wanted to go because she leaves tonight..so we got all ready..it was about 9-ish this morning..right when we went out the door..it started pouring raininggg..like pouring..lol..so chi got pissed and went outside in the backyard..so i went outside with her..then talia followed us..so the three of us were out there just messing around in the rain..lol..i felt like a little kid playing in the rain..then we started playing hand games..like numbers and all those other lil games we used to play when we were little..lol..and we were doing this while it was pouring raining..lol..it was fun..then it stopped raining and we went to the pool..we had fun over there to0..we raced each other in the pool and played water tag..then chicken..i won in chicken..that's my game right there..i always win..lol..so now im home..juss chillan..bout to jump in the shower..we just got home from the pool..talk to all u guys laterrrr..luv u..x0x0

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boricuababy

:: 2004 8 August :: 8.39pm
:: Mood: ecstatic
:: Music: My Place-Nelly

my party really DID turn out to be "off tha chain"..lol
ayyy..i had such a great time at the party last nite..im soo0o0o happy all you guys were able to come..it meant alot to me that you guys celebrated my special day with meEe..:D..i hope u guys had as much fun as i did..thank you all for my gifts to0..they were greattt..im waiting on all the pictures that were taken..the picz from the digi cam came out really cute tho..but my dad took 4 rolls of film..so i wanna see those..wowww..i had soo much fun..i cant get over it..lol..we partied hard..the DJ played all my music..he did good..gotta give him props..he played baby got back..lol..that was hilarious..my mom got kinda crazy..but thatz how she always is..meli and eric were soo cute together..lol..my dad was a little on the tipsy side.,but he did good..he didnt embarrass me too much..except when he cut in on me and emir's dance..did any body catch that??..lol..sameen-my mommy thinks your a really nice guy..lol..she told me to tell u that..sammi im so happy u danced..lol..the party took a lil while to get pumped up..but after me meli and ricarda started dancing and then junito and shawn got there it started poppin off..briana-my cousin likes youuu..lol..he's a player though..lol..but yea i had soo much fun..me n meli got to dance to our song..Obsession..then we all made a big circle..and danced to all these sean paul songs..lol..and tried doin all the dances from the videos..haha..that was greatt..we did really good tho..lol..my cousins were actin a fool..they're really koo tho..WE DID THE CHA-CHA SLIDEEEE...that was hott..then the electric slide..lol..and the macarena..carlos got down to that one..my feet were killinggg me way before the night was over..so i took off my shoes..so did every1 else..lol..then when i danced salsa with junito..he wanted to lead..so i sed ok..then he frickin killed my toe..omg..lol..but we had alotta fun..i didnt get to have my own cake..:(..that was the only downside..lol..but i think there's leftovers..so i needa look for it..lol..what else??..i read the picture everyone sgined last nite..you guys all wrote really nice things..i appreciate it..i was supposed to give everyone a picture..but with all the running around i forgot..i will definately give them to you guys at school..thanks again for coming i hope you had as much fun as i did!!..love you guys!!..x0x0

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lifesuxsodanz

:: 2004 7 August :: 12.14am

Interesting day...
most importantly I got my license today woohoo! It's really not all that exciting anymore it's just like...finally. My dad's FREAKING out over his insurance rates just having me drive his car when hes not using it so....i won't be having my own for a while I daresay. so...bah oh well.

Anywhoo today was a pretty good day practice went well. I left an hour early to go take my test and came back for the pool party thing at Shersty's house that we have at the end of summer practices every year. It's a bonding thing it went pretty well. Some highlights would be me falling off the pool deck and smacking my head into the wooden fence. I kinda stopped laughing when someone told me my head was bleeding but...I still don't feel anything lol I seriously think I had a minor concussion or something because I was delerious for a long time after. lol we harassed the new girls with water balloons and gave out our awards brittney got in a fight with rashunda and then spread chocolate mud stuff ALL over nicki. Yeah so funny stuff good clean fun w/e.

ummm what else what else....ok I foudn this quite amusing TWO people had dreams about me last night. That is just....idk creepy what are the odds of that. Liz comes up to me this morning and is all like I had this dream last night that you were being really slutty and everyone was like haha are you sure that wasn't just real life (yeah fuck you) lol and she's like no a bunch of us were at disney and I was all over some guys or something idk. I told liz to stop having dreams about me because it disturbed me. haha then later today ashley pasion calls me and tells me about some dream she had all about me but hers was really fricken amusing....

So like she's sleeping in the middle of the night and is woken up by a phone call from Ms. DiCillo's 9 yr old son Logan who asks for Phatass Pasion (haha) and she goes yes thats me. And then he asked her if she had a friend named Jessica Brandi because she was dead. So she starts crying on the phone because who wants me dead lol and then she calls danielle and they start having a big cryfest together. Then they go to my parents house to offer their condolences and my parents tell them that they can't handle it and ask them to throw my funeral for me. So it starts out an everyday boring funeral and everyone is standing around talking about how I was such a bitch but they somehow loved me anyway. And then all of a sudden they were like this is so boring this isn't jessica let's do it right. So they bring out all these speakers and turn on gangsta's paradise and everyones like rapping and shit and ashley and danielle are all like wtf and my parents come walking in and yell you guy's just got punked and they open up the coffin and it's empty and I come walking out laughing at them. idk I found it amusing.

yeah sooo after we left britts house lauren and I went to my house and then michelle came over and we went to blockbuster to rent some movies and order pizza and stuff and just sat around on my couch watching monty python. Jesuschrist monty python and the holy grail is the funniest fucking movie ever. Mexcan whoomping llamas and roger the SHRUBBER....can't get enough it all fit the mood I was in. We also rented some other weird british movie called 9 gay guys which is apparantly about guys that are NOT gay? idk sounds strange but we're watching that tomorrow. This is michelle's last weekend in town so we're making the most of it.

I have utopia practice at the studio saturday and sunday morning and then they are comming over 2morrow after it and then I am going to see my family (grrrr) afterwards on sunday then we have an officer meeting in fucking boca on monday AHHHHH. THEN I have hair/nail appts on tuesday and my bio isn't even half done. I really have to stop fucking around.

yuuuppp so that was my day more later.

~love~


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alwaysfalling

:: 2004 6 August :: 5.10pm
:: Mood: tired
:: Music: rooney - popstars

these are the words of the popstars.

i swear, i can't say it enough but i just can't do the whole kid thing. they just drive me crazy. my parents keep telling me that it is different when they are your own kids, which i totally understand, but i don't know, i'm weird. so i've been watching my little cousin, emily, a five year old. she talks back to me and does that whole, "you're not my boss" thing and then i get angry with her and tell her to not say it again and she says something like, "i don't even want to be next to you" and then she ends up hurting my feelings. just can't do it. only two more days of watching her though. thank goodness.

got my decal and locker today. saw no one. excited for school? no. i'm excited about kailannie's party tomorrow night, i'll see a lot of people i have missed over these past couple of months, plus tina lent me clothing so that i will look ready for the club.

my brother came back this week from his job in new york and seemed like he has a changed a little. he came home the first day and was like, "you want to go shopping?" then yesterday we were sitting around and he was playing a cd that had konstantine on it. i was just like, "woah... who are you?" he still parties though and whatever, but hey, he's going to uf in a week or so.

i'm done. enjoy your last summer weekend!

<3

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boricuababy

:: 2004 6 August :: 2.41pm
:: Mood: amused
:: Music: Dirrrrrrrrrrrrty-Christina Aguilera

my mouth is filled with peanut butter...
right now im eatin a peanut butter, banana, n marshmellow sandwich..my cousin natalia is typing this 4 me cause im eatin..lol..anyways im so hyped about my partayyyyy...when my mom gets home from work imma go get my nails did..gettin acrylics..:D..yesterday i ran into my buddy Carlos while i was gettin my locker and my schedule changed..my locker is number 136 in the 400 hall..carlos got 137..im all tha way on tha bottom..grrness..neways the whole crew is kinda near each other so thatz koo..i cuddnt get into history 6th hour..so i kept it for 1st and now i have drivers ed 6th period..not that bad..i can't wait till tomorrow!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! c all u soon..much lovee!!..x0x0

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sameen

:: 2004 6 August :: 10.45am
:: Mood: bored
:: Music: radio

I felt like I cheated u woohu readers cuz I just copied and pasted my livejournal post. I do that quite often. Sorry. So I'll write a new post. I wanna get a job. I dunno where tho. I'm really nervous about it. But I really do need 2 get one. Anyone have any ideas as to where I should get one? I was thinkin about maybe Blockbuster, Office Max, or Target. I would be happy at any of those places. I wanted to be Pharamaceudical Technician before, but u have to be 18 2 b one, I guess cuz of legal reasons... Anyway, main point- I need to get a job. I'll only work 1/2 times a week tho, cuz of school. Cuz school ITSELF is gonna be hard enough 2 manage. Then Key Club. All that kinda stuff.

All the excitement of driving has kinda died down. I dunno.. it's not as great as I thought it was before I was gonna get it and a few weeks after I get it. Prob cuz I don't actually have my own car. Just a license. And, wit my parents, it's not like I could always be out, just cuz I wanted to... I think most parents r like that lol.

kailannie's party is tomorrow. i have 2 get a haircut and a shirt. i hope i get 2 c a lotta ppl who i haven't gotten 2 c 4 a while.

well that's about it 4 now...

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sameen

:: 2004 6 August :: 1.31am

Heyy... it's been a long time. I missed home. I got back yesterday. The flight while comin here wasn't as bad as it was while going there. U know how it seems longer GOING someplace compared to COMING from someplace? I dunno. And the layovers at the airports weren't as bad. When we were leavin Dhaka, one of our suitcases was too heavy. It was 42 kilo's [I dunno what the conversion to lbs is..] and the limit is 32. Even tho some of our suitcases were 36/37.. he [the person that was checking us in] let that slide, but not wit the 42. So we had to take things out and stuff it into our handbags and we opened another suitcase and stuffed things into that. And it was really full. And sure enough, the chain broke, so there were clothes and stuff coming out of it when we arrived in Miami. I don't like British people. The people at Virgin Atlantic were rude to us both ways. I don't think people out of the U.S. can stand Americans. But I mean, me and my family aren't really American.. well technically me and my sister r- but u know what I mean.. right? Anyway, it was sad leaving everyone. My aunt actually went to Bangkok that day. So she left before us. But I think my grandparents and aunt will come this winter of early 2005. And possibly my other aunt if she can save enough money. I know my mom really misses my grandparents cuz when she was young she never got 2 spend time wit them. I mean, my mom got married when she was our age. I couldn't ever think of that happenin 2 me at this age. I dunno... these Eastern societies just work so weird. Besides things like that always happening, it's just SO depressing going to the east. There is such poverty and SUCH a difference between the upper class and lower class. There's hardly any middle class. I mean... I just can't describe it. It's a COMPLETELY different world there. Everything.. I mean EVERYTHING there is ENTIRELY different. For people who aren't used to it- it would definitely come as a culture shock. I mean, there were floods with the dirtiest water- some of it even blue from toxins and stuff and ppl were bathing in it and washing their utensils in it. But.. it's not like they have any other choice. And the way the servants r treated... it's awful. My aunt's servant stays overnight 6 days a week JUST so she can give her child lunch. I mean, things like this that we never even have to THINK about. That never even crosses our mind as a possible situation. And it's like.. what did we do to be born into the lives we were. That could have just as easily been us. I mean.. we didn't do anything for God to put us into the lives He did. Nothing special. Nothing out of the ordinary... So in a way it makes u aprreciate things, in America. It's such a powerful country and all the other country's r really dependent on our country. The news always talks about the upcoming election [everyone HATES Bush]. Tv there sucks. Everything is so old. It's like stuff from 2000 and 2001?? And on-line is slow and u have a limited amount of time. Like 1000 mins each month. I don't think I could stand that. And obviously things there r hard to find there. Just all these little things we take for granted. Like shampoo, soap, our snacks, etc. Sorry.. I'm ranting and raving about that. But all in all, it was a good trip in the sense that I got to spend time wit all my family and see my aunt who I haven't seen in 11 years. I got close with everyone, which is the reason why I went..

Anyway, it's nice to back. I had Taco Bell yesterday night. That felt good lol. And then my mom cooked this morning, so I had her food after a long time. It's not that food there is bad, but it's just different. Different species of veg's and stuff. And I couldn't eat outside cuz I didn't wanna get sick- I know sounds paranoid.. but there, it really isn't. People who LIVE there get stomach problems lol. Today I had to go 2 school to do a whole bunch of stuff. And me and Amara had to get gas.. that wasn't fun. It sucks havin 2 pay gas wit cash. Cuz u have 2 go in and tell them and everything. Need to get a debit card. And then wit the rain.. I duno it just took a long time. So then I went 2 the IBO- God, do I hate Ms. Landaker. I had Ms. Kelly first and then since I was switchin into Strat. 4 College Success I had 2 go 2 Ms. Landaker. She is so sloww. And I dunno.. just really inefficient. Annoys me. So here's my new schedule:

1. Strategies for College Success- Colle- I dunno the name.
2. Ap English- Schillit
3. AP US History- Hall
4. Chem II- Swanson
5. AP Spanish- Halcomb
6. AP Bio- Morone
7. Pre Cal- Powers

I feel like I settled too much for Chem, or lowered my standards? I would've taken AP Chem if it wasn't only offered first hour...And I wish I could've gotten farther in math. Comment if u have any classes wit me. I haven't had a chance 2 really check wit ppl. And then I got my locker. It was the bottom one. So I went back 2 get it changed. Luckily, I knew one of the guys, and he did it for me. And the colonel wasn't there. But I switched it and it was the bottom one again lol. They told me if u divide it by 4 it's bottom and none of us checked lol. So then I felt like a dumbass for goin again. But hey.. they didn't check either. It was 132. Not that that is really relevant. But I got 133. So it's all good. I saw Mr. Morone- it was nice seein him again. He's a good man. I respect him. Once again, random. And I saw Liz, Sunil, and Allison- that was nice. I saw Greta 2 while the locker fiasco.

So that's about it. Sorry this was a long entry...

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